N U R S A F I A H

Tuesday, July 04, 2006/

confused @ 6:36 pm

i am confused. this whole thing. and i am even more convinced that i should let ALLAH decide, when the right time is.

I thought I was right by I was wrong. I am not going to publicise myself again. I am going to keep it all to myself and hope the whole world forgets along with me.

Why must my dream or should I say nightmare come true when I have thrown it away at the back of my head a long time ago? Back when I decide to forget about all things wonderful.

I have realised that I am very good in telling my body what to do. I can now control my mind. When I say, "Stop thinking about it!", my brain stops. My heart stops feeling. It grows numb. Now I just hope my friends will stop teasing.

The more I dig, the more I am blinded or is the right word enlightened? The more I think I am stupid, so stupid to have felt.

Now got Sade's problem. I talked her into it but she still persists...Sade, give tat guy a break! Put yourself in his shoes! You slapped him already. Pain tau! And you hurt his heart and you drowned his eyes. Dah lah tu maafkan die.

Just now, Malay Oral...aghhhh. sheeshness to the max.
Apakah kejayaan yang paling bermakna kepada kamu?

But during English, we did a skit. My group consisted of Han Nui, Filzah and Yang Yang. We were doing a scenario about a little girl lost in a dark alleyway and we had to act out her feelings, what she saw, what she heard, smelt and touched. I was the wall and the bin, Yang2 the narrator and Filzah the cat and the mice. HAn Nui was sabo-ed to become the lil girl cos she was absent all the time we came up with the script. After we finished I wrote each of them a page from my notepad saying that they were the best narrator, cat and mice, and little girl. Han Nui said that it was so sweet and she keeps these type of lil things. I was touched. It was such a simple act to light a smile in someone's heart.

Then the other highlight was in Geography where we started a new topic: Tourism. We had an assignment: Create a tour in your facourite country. So Fun!!! Me and Geraldine Chai a.k.a. GC paired up. Take note the initials, GC! We decided to do on Gold Coast, Australia since there were a lot of attractions there for our target group, families with young kids. Then she dumb dumb realised that Gold Coast the initials are also GC! Muahahah. Then I came across this website www.verygc.com. hahahha. hilarious mann! they described "the GC is a spectacular wonder" we were having a bombastic laugh in front of Mrs Koh.

Haiz...
another day at school...

a lyfe* like mine-; 6:36 pm