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I have learned that if you must leave a place That you have lived in and loved, And where all of your yesterdays are buried deep - Leave it any way except slow; Leave it the fastest way you can. Never turn back and believe that an hour you remember Is a better hour because it is dead. Past years seem safe ones, vanquished ones, While the future lives in a cloud, formidable from a distance. The cloud clears though, as you enter it. I have learned this, but like everyone, I learned it late.
haha...i don't know if this is the real translation, i just happened to see it after seeing the video. It's a really nice and simple song. Now I always sing it with Samantha or Xavier. And when I sang the first part of the chorus, which is the only part I know, Martin asked me if I'm really NOT Chinese. HAHAHA. Which reminds me that Sean just asked me if I'm half Chinese. HEHX.
constant playback known presence stops when i pick up my violin
The meaning is really pretty...
Qian Li Zhi Wai by Jay Chou
Awake from the dream, who stands near the window and opened (our/the) ending chapter? The future that is thinner than the wings of a cicada, cannot handle the opening from anyone.
The roof feels like the edge of the cliff, The wind bell sounds like the endless ocean, I waited for the swallow to come back. Time is being arranged (by fate) to perform a coincidence, and you are leaving quietly.
The story is located outside of the city, the mist isn't cleared, (I am) unable to see (your) reply. You did not hear, wind does not exist, it was my sigh.
I walked with you until you left, outside of thousands of miles, you have no replies. In this silent dynasty, maybe I should not fall in love from a distance. I walked with you until you left, outside of the end of the sky, are you still there? Where is the sound of the instrument from? How can I predict whether you are alive? I will use my lifetime, to wait.
With a full set of white clothing, transparenting(??) my sadness about your spotless love. You came from rain, poetically converting my sadness, I stayed in that rain (till) now. Flowers can still be picked from the lake, the shadow of the boat still remains, but you will not come back. (These things are) being dusted with time, the blossom you mentioned, became an empty promise.
how poignant and...
XOXO N U R S A F I A H loves her violin again
P.S. I met Najihah yesterday, somehow she made me realise that it'll all be allright soon. Thanks Naj. And YES we found our poem book! YAY!!!
P.P.S Econs notes and Geog notes and havn't finish Sylvia Plath YET! GRRR...i hate myself now.
BOTERO! His work, his signature! haha...did we misuse his statue, Shahini? haha oh maaan.
hahaha..love love love
Updates about each other rocks. Haha. All the "WHAT? MAN? GOSH!" Food. Drinks. Calls. Cajun. Step up 2! Lyana is RIGHT it rocks! haha..oklah...i like the fact that it's a continuation, not just a spin off or a repetition. Rawking.
SHAHINI, thanks for taking the time to go out together. I FORGOT to bring my vouchers! GRR...there goes my 2 bucks!
I saw Jaye! Who was supposed to meet Syafiqah who is always MIA. Hahaah...
It was a dreary day, cold and grey. I'm sorry if there are too many poems. Haha. It may be due to the fact that I start taking Literature, and no more SCIENCE subjects. WOO HOO.
Sean makes it sound like I'll be burying myself a grave by the middle of the year. Look at all of them walking zombies. Hee...
Right now, I want to see Najihah. :) Hopefully I can go her house tomorrow. I think I shall not watch Leap Years tomorrow. Even though it's 6 bucks only...GRR. ___
trying to clap with one hand gets tiring, cos there's no sound. searching through the list gets tiring i should know you're always not around
why should i bother again and again last chance; next week in the morning rain
fate's there, so are choices recurrence of the faces too bad you didn't know this let's have a happy end.
haha. ok here goes some random shizzamagizz that i just did. I just typed "i miss you lyrics" on the search box (google's the best) and out pops 930,000 results. yes random. i just needed a break from these Sylvia Plath poems I'm annotating. It can get depressing sometimes...her poems. Only one is uplifting and I'm just not the depression type of person. I hope I never fall into depression. So...just to make me smile..all the I MISS YOU songs...are so...what's the word...I can't find the word for it. Like...suitable for anyone? haha ok. I am so not good with words right this moment...due to the fact that all the cheem words I'm finding the meaning of are stuck in my head. Which IS good.
OK stop missing people because that's what they are. MISSING! haha. Gosh that was funny. OOh..enlightenment..
I miss FARNIE. Hee... I miss Sean-Serene and Wee Shiun. I miss the Good News Cafe Aunty. I miss the Sedap! makciks and pakcik and the PCK sign! HAH HAH! I miss the extension and the cafe and the underground hall.
I miss Cedar and Mrs Choo and Ms Lizah. I miss the mentoring sessions with Mrs Choo. I havn't thanked her properly have I? I miss the history sessions with Ms Lizah. I miss Aunty Lily! I miss Indian Fare makcik! I miss Netball trainings.
I miss my secret admirer. I miss lover. I really miss lover. Heh.
I miss my cute friend.
I miss the KI ppl.
I miss the KI teachers and the KI sessions.
I miss green tea brewed with jasmine. HAHA.
I miss 940.
I MISS SHAHINI AND AM SEEING HER TOMORROW! You'll always be my best friend because you know too much about me! Hee hee...
OK hahah. I am seriously bored. This is therapy. At least I can now say these stuff without wanting to cry. OK. Major progression *pats self on the back*
I even miss Christina...where are you!? Ah ok...I'm definitely so unstable now. Sometimes sooo high. Sometimes sooo low..There's a LOW song by T-PAin right. Maybe I should go and check if there are HIGH songs. hahaha... Say the internet ROCKS.
hannah montana, boys II men, ermm...WHAT LAH...u go do yourself. Quite FUN! hahaha.
I Miss You- Hannah Montana
I miss you I miss your smile And I still shed a tear every once in any while And even though it's different now You're still here somehow My heart won't let you go And I need you to know I miss you Sha-la-la-la-la I miss you
You used to call me your dreamer And now I'm livin' out my dream Oh, how I wish you could see Everything that's happenin' for me I'm thinkin' back on the past It's true the time is flyin' by too fast
I know you're in a better place, yeah But I wish that I could see your face, oh I know you're where you need to be Even though it's not here with me
I Miss You- Blink 182
Hello there The angel from my nightmare The shadow in the background of the mourge The unsuspecting victim Of darkness in the valley We can live like Jack and Sally if we want Where you can always find me And we'll have Halloween on Christmas And in the night we'll wish this never ends We'll wish this never ends
Where are you And Im so sorry I cannot sleep I cannot drink tonight I need somebody and always This sick strange darkness Comes creeping on So haunting every time And as I stared I counted The webs from all the spiders Catching things and eating their insides Like indecision to call you And hear your voice of treason Will you come home and stop this pain tonight
Don't waste your time on me Your'e already the voice inside my head [I miss you I miss you]
I Miss You- Aaliyah
It's been too long and I'm lost without you What am I gonna do? Said I been needin' you, wantin' you Wonderin' if you're the same and who's been with you Is your heart still mine? I wanna cry sometimes I miss you
I'm just wonderin' if you still care I don't wanna let you know That it's killin' me I know you got another life you gotta concentrate baby
OK there is just tooo many. WOO HOO. and i am so high now. AHA... cos some of them are so corny without the music on and i just wanna LMAO! Hahhahaha
XOXO N U R S A F I A H 's emotional graph is spiky!
P.S. my bill is sooo constant $60 plus! i think it will dip cos I will not use my hp much anymore. BTW, i have unlimited SMS to SINGTEL so if u are NOT using SINGTEL please TELL ME! especially if i chat constantly with you.
P.P.S. THERE IS A SONG CALLED HIGH! hahahah whee man i love the lyrics. i've not bothered to listen to the song.
High- James Blunt
Beautiful dawn - lights up the shore for me. There is nothing else in the world, I'd rather wake up and see (with you). Beautiful dawn - I'm just chasing time again. Thought I would die a lonely man, in endless night. But now I'm high; running wild among all the stars above. Sometimes it's hard to believe you remember me.
Beautiful dawn - melt with the stars again. Do you remember the day when my journey began? Will you remember the end (of time)? Beautiful dawn - You're just blowing my mind again. Thought I was born to endless night, until you shine. High; running wild among all the stars above. Sometimes it's hard to believe you remember me.
Will you be my shoulder when I'm grey and older? Promise me tomorrow starts with you, Getting high; running wild among all the stars above. Sometimes it's hard to believe you remember me
and sometimes, songs keep reminding me... @ 12:12 am
especially now. the songs.....oh gosh. Everytime I hear lyrics that synchronise to what I'm feeling in my heart, it'll be number one on my charts.
but I'm so saaad that Kevin left the group! :( WHY!!! Kevin is the one who i like most in the BSB and the one who can sing the best! Gosh...okok. Read the lyrics first then listen to the song. I have never stopped liking BSB ok even though the name sounds funny now. They should be Backstreet Men. HAHAH!
Trouble Is- Backstreet Boys
How come you never know What you got until it's gone Too bad Because I never felt so good with anyone How fooled was I into thinking I was gonna be alright Okay Fine
So every day I try a little harder To forget her Lie here convince myself Tomorrow will be better
The trouble is I can't get her out of my mind When I close my eyes at night Who's gonna save me Now she's gone The trouble is there's a part of me That still can't let go of her memory And now I know what it is Love is what the trouble is
Love is what the trouble is
How come she said You never wear your heart Where I can see Too bad Cause now I'm the one Who's sorry How stupid was I into thinking I was gonna be alright Okay Fine
So everyday I find a little something To remind me No matter how I try I can't put the past behind me
Love has let me go I'm alright, I'm okay I'll be fine, give it time
two's a company and three's a crowd. or so they say.
but yesterday night, i felt horribly low. AGAIN.
Yeah yeah...i know. No I DON'T.
so I sms-ed Muu. Thank you girl for your understanding. You helped me sleep a bit better.
I so wanna watch LEAP YEARS. There'll be SNEAKERS outing on Friday and they'll watch it before the training but mum says I can't go because I've got to take care of baby bro :( When duty calls, you've gotta respond. AND I WANNA GO NETBALL SO MUCH. We'll see when the day comes. If it's okay...i really really hope I can go. Maybe I need that physical exertion and imagine someone's face is the ball and throw it as hard as I could. Maybe I need the social comfort that comes with training and having marches with the girls. Whatever it is, I NEED to go to training!
I just needed to see them, Muu and Marli. Lucky for the study outing. Hee...we saw so many people all around Tampines. Let me see...Yusliyana (aka Lyana), Marli's friend Timothy, Azrul, Sabri, Umar and Lyana saw Shila and some other people. haahahha. Small world when your schoo's in the East. Then after Lyana watched her movie we met her again at 77th street and we saw Adlin and Suria Priya (aka Supi) too.
Sylvia Plath's poems...gosh WHAT DO THEY MEAN???
Exclusively HERS restroom SHIOK AH!
YAYEZZ...
I am in the midst of cleaning out my room...yet again so that when term starts, my room is another option to study in.
I wish I had some game to play. Like...PSP games...but all so EX. Or Nintendo or whatever. I need a healthy addiction.
By the way, my Madrasah just made me the Vice-Chairperson of Alkaff Youth. I almost spit out the tea I was drinking. So now, Aimran is the Chairperson, me the Vice-Chairperson oh gosh can't remember the rest. BUT...I'm the youngest there! Serious. The rest are in poly and 19 plus? hhaahha GOSH. First project: Alkaff Family Day. HAHAHA. WHAHAHA GOSH. Allah, help me. I know I can do this. YAY.
XOXO N U R S A F I A H wants life to be back to normal but forgots that her life is never normal
Friday was a short day. No scratch that. It was a wonderfully LOOOONG day.
Told Pamela that I'd meet her at TPJC so we can go SPH together. Turns out Samantha wants to go to TPJC too to meet her friend, Angela. So we went back together. Then Pamela told me that her mum would be picking us up so YAY!
I know Khai and Husna wanted to go back too but I can't stay and hang out with them cos of the IN thing. I miss Syazwan. He says that I can meet him whenever I want and he will sing WHATEVER song I want him to sing! YAYezz! haha. I still remember being such a buggerboo and asking him to sing all the random songs from that movie that we watched in MLEP, Cinta, but he was a malu-malu cat that time so he was like "WHAT THE SAFIAH?" hee...TPJC MLEP rocks lah ok.
I met Liyana, Athifah and AMIRA! YAY! I always see Liyana around. Haha...and she always has this confused face when she sees me. HELLO GIRL WAKE UP! haha
Then Ms Angela Quek saw me and asked me WHY I'm not in KI. I told her I'm in MJC now (as I was so obviously wearing a different colour uniform then the rest of the KI girls). She asked me why I'm not taking KI there. WOW she KNOWS? hahahha. I just told her I din't like MJ KI. yah i still miss KI. :( ok. Pam takes KI and I was sitting with Kailing and she takes KI too. So yah the KI peeps rocks!
As I was crossing the overhead bridge I saw the hockey girls and SHOUTED to Syahidah and Hamaizah. Then I RAAAAN to them and hugged them. Now in their TPJC uni, they look so different. Haha...Syahidah looks TALLER i swear.
I bought Apple Lattice cos I was so hungry and stole a sip from Sammy's Ice Lemon Tea. LOVE cafe's ILT.
Hammy Ronson and ME! I love PAMMMY!
Kai Ling long legs. hhahaha.
Then Pam's mummy came. We went to Branding and showed off our new uniforms. Haha..everyone says we look so different. A lot of them thought I was from CJC. ARGGH. Erma arrived and we went to the toilet and I suggested to....
hee... SWITCH UNIFORMS. but but but...Pam so unsporting LARH...she dun want to change skirt with me so I had the TPJ top with MJ bottom and Erma has my MJ top with her North Vista sec bottom and Pam has Erma's jersey with TPJ skirt. Erma had a feel of what it'd be like to wear MJ uniform and she keeps calling it "her future uniform". HAHA. But the colour difference with MJ and TPJ is not really obvious, as you can see.
Then the rest of the gang came and Pam and Erma did all the Amazing Race preparation. I wrote the new members' names on their lanyards.
In desperation, I grabbed Mervyn's SA tie because I miss my Cedar tie. I've been wearing a tie to school since forever and now...no tie! Not bad huh...doesn't look bad at all.
I'm so sorry guys! My stomach unfortunately...comes first. Haiz...summore haven't eaten lunch. Thanks to Liyana and Joe En for sticking and appearing LATE with me, even though Peter saw us earlier. I know he always thinks I'm the LATE one. Haiz..why why why everytime like this?
So we had the official talks and introduction and presentation of certs to the IN CROWD 07 which is US! Honestly I felt so enthusiastic and HIGH all day. Kept contributing to the noise. Haha. Then..makan time..and you know what happens during Makan Time...
Attempt #190 to persuade Liyana to eat unhealthy fattening foods...which tastes good all the same. HAHAH!
Also, comparing of our life. Jessica, along with her twin bro, got 6 points and chose to go to CJC. She also chose to take h1 math! So did Joe En who got 8 points. YAY MAN. All of us are in pure ARTS and only Pam is in Science. HAHA...Pam...you take Science FOR WHAT!! H1 Math ROCKS! Especially since we take A maths already. WE people better get A for h1 math sia.
And then, since Erma brought her cam, I wanted to show the world the difference between MJC uniform and CJC uniform. oh bummer...they are in Yee Suan's camera. Ok, TONIGHT she'll send it to me.
From left: Pamela in TPJC, me in MJC and Jessica in CJC. What's the big diff?
Erma wants to go to CJC but I told her it's so far. Might as well go to MJC since the uniforms are almost the same. She lives in Punggol so MJ is obviously a better choice.
I followed one group of juniors for their Amazing Race- Nasri's group. What a determined little fellow he is. I think this year's IN Crowd has a lot of pretty faces. But so sad, all girls. HAHAH. At least Phyllis will make friends there too huh. No worries Phyllis. I really hope Erma can persuade her school to suscribe because one year in IN Crowd is NOT enough. Hahah. Two years in and I'm missing it. All the good and bad things that happended...everything meant a lot. We all learnt a lot from all of it. And we get a taste of real life in the office, how serious it is, how tough it is, how SCARYFYING it is. I hope IN Alumni will make it through and maybe, hopefully we can follow IN Crowd 08 to their overseas trip this year!
And I'm really really thankful that I've made such great friends, even though we are all sooo different. We all complement each other. I would never ask for any other people to replace my IN Crowders, my homies...and I'm definitely going to come for Child Aid 08. YAYz. And LRD trip. If I'm free. Imagine....when it comes to the 10th IN Crowd...we shall all be success stories. HEE...Then Peter will be so proud of us.
Erma: "SAVE ME from KINKY Bryan!"
What stare stare? I know you want to stop and stare ah but this is OVARrr the liiine. (diva talk)
HAHA. This made me laugh!
JUSTIN who's been MIA for so looong. Who is HE again?
NEWS FLASH: The new Motorola handphone has just been RELEASED. THe MOTO KRKD (cracked). Poor Merv...what happened???
Top row (frm left): Mervyn Lau, Erma Dzalin "Dazzlin", Yee Suan, Liyana YEO!, Phyllis, Wei Zhong, Joe En, Bryan
I din't get to be a participant of pre u seminar. :( nevermind. other opportunities then.
I was so low today. Because I was so scared to get stressed in the future after that COMPASS thing or better known as CME...why do they give it a cheem name. And after that was Lit lecture...and the Sylvia Plath movie... :( i don't like what it reminds me of. Heartaches. OW OW OW. Ah okok.
Then I became really high. I think 08A301 has a new studying/eating territory. YAY! Behind the LTs where there is a bit of greenery and food and air and solitude and not a lot of people around us who appear to be mugging but who are actually playing cards/pretending to study/doing last minute homework (procrastinating). Shafiq is so funny all throughout the day I keep laughing AT the things he do. And Nadirah and Jannah...WHAT are they to Gary talking about? But because of the laughter, I just can't stop laughing at Gary the Pooh.
I told Amira Filza my story and she cried. Gosh. I knew it was sad but I din't think I'd find anyone who thought it was sad too. Yes....a kindred spirit. Amira is not actually who I think she is. HINTS HINTS. GRINS GRINS.
I can't wait for the librarians to register my card. I need to borrow books. I need to rewrite the econs stuff into my homework. I need to read GEOG. I need to make time for Geog extra lesson because I am NOT a PURE Geography student in Sec Sch. But Geog is so interesting. Hahah. I'm glad I took Geography. Now I know a little bit about ALL the Humanities. YAY.
I'm scared for March holidays to start. I'm scared because everything is going SO FAST.
I want to talk about AHMAD ISMAIL now. YES. YOU. I can't say much if not people suspect. HAH HAH. It's just, thanks for still sticking (friend friend). I think we're back to primary school. The times where we used to tease each other and play kiddy stuff. YES GROW UP. But if you do, you won't be Ahmad. Cos the Ahmad I know is always so budak kechik. And it really does not matter what school you go to. Don't be ashamed. Just do your best. You're still one of my best guy friends (only cos I don't have many guy friends haha). However, things are a lot different now. You changed, I changed. We can't expect things to stay the same. It's a fact of life right? I'll accept it. And I KNOW why suddenly you've been talking to me a lot. HAHA. You're BORED. I think when your school life starts and my school life gets hectic, we won't talk that much too. Nevermind. Because our primary school gang rocks, we meet each other a lot lahh. HAHA
Oh by the way I need to catch up with Zi Zheng too.
And practice the violin.
XOXO N U R S A F I A H unlocked?
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8:32 pm
Wednesday, March 05, 2008/
it's tiring to be happy all the time; emo day @ 9:36 pm
Am so tired cos of Guitar orientation. Yes. This is how bad my stamina is at the moment. Run around school a bit and POOF my body is so tired. My immunity is sooo BAD.
Ok. I miss Daryl a lot. So Daryl if you're reading this, please don't ask me to stop missing you because it's a feeling and I can't make feelings from going away until it does.
Today I missed Jonathan too because it's the first time going to a guitar meeting with no friendly Jonathan's face. And his piercing. And his pro guitar skills. And yeah I kinda miss his friendly voice.
I miss Najihah also. Cos of the fact that she'll go around asking if everything is okay and me being SUCH a pro at guitar will always make funny faces at her, and tell her about the latest news of me and we'll share some insiders cousin-ny joke. GOSH...
ok ok Safiah stop it. You're starting to tear.
And sometimes, especially at this period of time, I cry myself to sleep because I feel so insecure. I don't know about what. My future? My friendships? My life?
Yes I know I shouldn't feel like this. I might as well have stayed in TPJ if I'm always returning back or missing people. But it's too late and in my BRAIN, MJ is the right choice because I really feel like I can study in MJ. If I was hardworking and self-disciplined and brave enough, I'd have stayed. But I'm not. I'm really not. So yeah. Too bad I just had to sacrifice my heart for my brain and future. Who asked me to be so lazy?
Atikah and me felt so unwelcomed or some feeling like that just now. I had to console her a lot. It's just if some people don't know how to welcome other people, it's not their fault right? Nobody taught them. All their life they only knew that the differentiation of 48x is 48 and so on.
I just expect everything to get better in time....as it is supposed to heal everything else. Because now it hurts a lot. So this is why, this song is just going loop-de-loop in my w910i.
Better in Time- Leona Lewis
It's been the longest winter without you I didn't know where to turn to See somehow I can't forget you After all that we've been through
Going coming thought I heard a knock Who's there no one Thinking that I deserve it Now I realise that I really didn't know If you didn't notice you mean everything Quickly I'm learning to love again All I know is I'm gon' be ok
Thought I couldn't live without you It's gonna hurt when it heals too It'll all get better in time And even though I really love you I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to It'll all get better in time
I couldn't turn on the TV Without something there to remind me Was it all that easy To just put aside your feelings
If I'm dreaming don't wanna laugh Hurt my feelings but that's the path I believe in And I know that time will heal it
If you didn't notice boy you meant everything Quickly I'm learning to love again All I know is I'm gon' be ok
Since there's no more you and me It's time I let you go So I can be free And live my life how it should be No matter how hard it is I'll be fine without you Yes I will
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on the brighter side of life, the day started with 08A301 reminisicing on old boyband songs and I was singing and singing with Martin. Then we started to reminisce about childhood TV shows. I remember there was this one show on Kids Central where there was a clown on a HUGE sofa. Then, Dexter's Lab, Mummies Alive..haiz..that was good fun.
The Sizzling Western food in our canteen can be eaten by Muslims now. YAY!
However, I really DO NOT LIKE the cleanliness of the canteen. EEE gosh. Everytime I go there I shiver. WHY WHY WHY?
And it's so easy to get stains on the MJ uniform. Like mysteriously, out of nowhere and somehow, they are there! Tsk.
I've been elected Vice Chairperson for temporary Class Commitee.
Q:Where is my life going to go? A: I don't know but for the next 18 months, STUDYING is your main priority.
WHAT A LIFE.
Oh and Thank You sooo much to Shafiq for supporting me during the "speeches". Farnie! Thanks to Samantha for being my listening ear at the start of my emo day.
Thanks to Jannah for always picking up the phonecalls when I'm always lost and don't know where the class is.
Thanks to Christina for giving me the hug that I needed. Thanks for introducing me to your classmates. I can only remember Salihin and Azrul and Aida and Kamal.
Thanks to Mark for always giving me reasons to smile at the end of the day. And everyone is talking about Mas Selamat. T.T Everywhere I go. Class, hairdresser. I hope everyone will be safe and everything will be over..
I missed the little "family gathering" of the PAE 08S28 family because I had Fariz's birthday to go to. I don't like going to two things at a time EVERYTIME because I feel so rushed and a bit guilty to my family. With the new addition to the house, I feel it is my responsibility as the eldest to take care of the baby brother. It may be frustrating at times but just looking at his cute face makes me realise how innocent and pure he is. I wanted a baby brother so I must help my mum with everything. So I'm really sorry to Jasmine, Jocelyn and Mark for not being able to make it. I really really want to watch Leap Years with you! And I can't make it again next Saturday because of Gema Puisi Artistik which I promised Sadelena since we were in secondary school that we would go every year even after we graduated frm Cedar.
So I went to meet Shila at White Sands and left Ahmad and Adli to go shopping for Fariz's present on their own. Shila and me decided to be so BUDG-JET (say it the Liyana way!) and give him chocolates that we like and we bought a ready-made wrapping paper bag and put all the chocs inside. Honestly, we didn't know what to get for a boy. We met Adli and Ahmad at Level One and saw Jannah, Adelaida and Kikin. HAHA. What a coincidence. Then I asked them where they were going and they replied, "To Fariz's birthday party." I forgot that they knew Fariz too from Young Minds Club ( YMC Mendaki). That was quite a pleasant surprise. The boys bought a pair of shades for him. Quite nice. Jannah wanted to buy SOMETHING REALLY BAD for Fariz and me and Kikin RULED it out for her. So EMBARASSING T.T hehx.
I think our group was the first to reach the chalet. Then, Leon came. Phay Key, Dian, Izwan and Serene from the GPS part, some of Fariz's MI OG mates (I only caught the name of one of them- Grace) and more of the YMC people - Hani (in AJC now), Fads( she only came for a while and just barely said hello to her, Mat ( in NJip) and Zul (ACJC). Jannah's in SAJC and Adel's in ACSib and she really really likes what she's studying there though she says the culture's not that good. Kikin's in Sg International School. Yeah. Adel and Kikin are cousins. Ok then I really enjoyed myself because I talked a lot to both groups cos I know them. Haha... Jannah and Adelaida are my secondary school mates. Quite close to them. I really caught up a lot with Leon and Serene. Serene's in VJ and she was in Dunman High before that. She said that it's been four years and all she saw was Chinese and this is the first time she interacted with Malays after those four years. HAHA. Serene's really very sweet. I don't know why but Shila and Dian didn't really look like they were enjoying themselves. Hee...
Ahmad was a bit fed up at us cos we talked about SCHOOL AND SCHOOL...honestly, there's really nothing much I can talk about because if I let him take the lead, the direction of the conversation will veer off to GIRLS...T.T
Fariz's sister really changed alot huh...When Puberty sets in...his younger brothers all still look the same to me. And I'm glad that his parents still remember me!
The pictures I took were all crap and so I'll just wait for Jannah to come online. I went home with Adelaida, Kikin and Hani. The first to go. Found out that Hani takes H1 maths too! YAY!
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Things are so freaking different now.
I really appreciate the fact that even though we all lead different lives, my primary school friends and I make an effort to meet up regularly. That can't be said for some people who right now, don't even want to SEE my face/HEAR my voice and I can't figure out WHY WHY WHY. I really do not know WHAT in the world I did wrong. I thought things would be okay...I thought wrong. How can it be that one point of time we were so close and now I just feel HATE. Everytime I try to approach with caution, I'd be pushed away. There's a limit to the bruises my heart can take. There's so many theories my mind came up with to protect what was treasured in the past: you're protecting yourself (from WHAT?), you're trying to make life better by pretending this is some tragic drama (It's NOT. This is LIFE. This is REAL.) and that after a hundred years, someone will come back to you and save you from your misery (you won't live that long). I'm trying so hard not to hate you but can you just realise that it hurts. It hurts a lot....
oh gosh. You just commited an act of humanity. THANKS : )
If I should die before I wake Because you took my breath away Losing you is like living in a world with no air, oh
I’m here alone, didn’t wanna leave My heart won’t move, it’s incomplete Is there an other way I can make you understand?
But oh Do you expect me, to live alone with just me? ‘Cause my world revolves around you It’s so hard for me to breathe
Tell me how I’m supposed to breathe with no air? Can’t live, can’t breath with no air That’s how I feel whenever you ain’t there There’s no air, no air
Got me out here in the water so deep Tell me how you gon’ be here without me? If you ain’t here I just can’t breathe There’s no air, no air
I walked, I ran, I jumped,I flew Right off the ground to float to you There’s no gravity to hold me down, for real
But somehow I’m still alive inside You took my breath but I survived I don’t know how but I don’t even care
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Najihah, remember the time we had that small book we're supposed to pass to each other everytime we meet? That book of poems we really liked. Where is it now? :)
The video above is not the real official music video. They won't let me copy the codes :( The real video is really very nice. Click here to see.
BOTERO! His work, his signature! haha...did we misuse his statue, Shahini? haha oh maaan.
hahaha..love love love
Sylvia Plath's poems...gosh WHAT DO THEY MEAN???
Exclusively HERS restroom SHIOK AH!
YAYEZZ...
Hammy Ronson and ME!
I love PAMMMY!
Kai Ling long legs. hhahaha.
In desperation, I grabbed Mervyn's SA tie because I miss my Cedar tie. I've been wearing a tie to school since forever and now...no tie! Not bad huh...doesn't look bad at all.
Attempt #190 to persuade Liyana to eat unhealthy fattening foods...which tastes good all the same. HAHAH!
From left: Pamela in TPJC, me in MJC and Jessica in CJC. What's the big diff? 
Erma: "SAVE ME from KINKY Bryan!"
What stare stare? I know you want to stop and stare ah but this is OVARrr the liiine. (diva talk)
HAHA. This made me laugh!
JUSTIN who's been MIA for so looong. Who is HE again?
Top row (frm left): Mervyn Lau, Erma Dzalin "Dazzlin", Yee Suan, Liyana YEO!, Phyllis, Wei Zhong, Joe En, Bryan