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Saturday, September 27, 2008/
spontaneous, cunning up with a surprise of a storm @ 11:08 pm
I still love Taufik !
and am still fascinated with Korea. Heh.
and I am falling more and more in love with Asia, as in our continent, everytime. (: We don't need Western influences... We're much more lovely. Yupp.
ok just felt like blogging la. Erma made a tribute post for me. Thanks darling (: *biggrin*
I'll study P&P again and try my best... it's like the last bit already. Everyone's finished their paper except the H2 Geog and H2 Lit peeps. Everyone's celebrating and preparing for Raya. A lot of people are making Hari Raya kuehs already... huhu! And I still hate the way my room looks like. I want it to transfigure! transform! reborn! haha so "potrait (paper 5 lit)". Nevermind, I have the weekends to study. Nyeh...
And I'm realising how Pride&Prejudice was a self-help book ahead of its time. Jane Austen is a wonderful genius.
"I am convinced, my dear aunt, that I have never been much in love, for had I really experienced that pure and everlasting passion, I should at present detest his very name, and wish him all manner of evil. But my feelings are not only cordial towards him; they are even impartial towards Miss King. I cannot find our rhat I hate her at all, or that I am in the least unwilling o think her a very good sort of girl. There can be no love in all of this. My watchfulness has been effectual; and though I should certainly be a more interesting object to all my acquaintance, were I distractingly in love with him, I cannot say that I regret my comparative insignificance. Importance may sometimes be purchased too dearly."
-Elizabeth, Pride & Prejudice.
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We keep our distances We don't reveal our inner selves I'm done with this tension buildup of a dance I think I've finally reached equlibrium with you.
It's okay. We're stable.
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Yeah. Woo hoo! I transcended to the Janeite-dom. Oh and stumbled across some fab blogs:
colloseum and SONGFEST! and the week in digital snapshots @ 8:37 pm
1. Monday- Jannah (MJ)'s bday...SEXY SEVENTEEN!
JANNAH SEXY SEVENTEEN!
1. Shafienas bought Jannah a cream roll from the Recharge stall From left; Fazari, Siti, Me and Shafienas. We all stare at Jannah eating the cake longingly...except Shafienas...since she is so happy that she bought Jannah a present..
2. We all TRY to get a bite. Fazari wants to snatch. Jannah says "OI!" Siti wants to hit Jannah with a ....shoebag?! Shafienas says....let's drink this drink instead!
3. At the end of the day, the nice one gets a feeding from the birthday girl while the naughty Fazari sulks at one corner...
Family photo! Missing in picture: Shafiq and Nadirah(photographer).
Fairies in the air... Fazari says "the grass is greener on the ground"
Safiah: FACE OFF AH... Fazari: Nak challenge ke pe...
BOO!
2. Election Day on Wednesday
council nominees; all the best to all deserving nominees
Voting through SMS. Extra lah Musfirah and Wirda! teehee...
But we got bored and our legs and backs so cramped from sitting on the floor...
3. Colloseum on Friday
Before that, I had one period of H1 maths. And am so happy that I got one of the highest in class. 16/25. I know I could have scored better. I mean I took A Math already right? SO...haiz.. ok ok. A lot of careless mistakes. And...now I must maintain this. But everyone should know that this is the FIRST time in history that Safiah scores one of the highest for Maths. I've always been failing Additional Maths during upper sec. Hee hee...Can't help but be happy and telling everyone! haha...
Got ready with Christina. We were so pissed at the fact that we were treated like prisoners. ARGGS. So she asked her dad to send her her stuff. So pissing offing. Haiz..Phobos plus Callisto!
Springing of Christina... ...SUCCESSFUL!
I dinnoe my hair grew THIS long...
YAY! Found a french-braider in school! THANKS RIKA!!! Muackz! Btw...i LOVE th triton cheerleadingdisplay..ROKCS..no wonder they won...and i love your shirts lahh...NICE okay.
Time to try french braiding Christina's hair. CHOPPED: Failure....
Shila is ATLAS' Cheerleader! SO CUTE!
08A301! Plus Musfirah sesat...Phobos and Atlas had to seat at the tentage...haiz.
TOTEM POLE!
Gladiators ball: There was supposed to be heats but it kept postponing due to the rain so J1 and J2 were combined. I was the only J1 in the Gladiator's Ball team cos Shafienas backed out. What a shock I got when I was introduced to the team by Zaki. Arghs. felt so alone being the only J1 but I just tried my best talking to the 3 other J2s. It's something like Captain's ball...and we played on the synthetic football field..I have never had so many people watching me play before, 2 WHOLE HOUSES...a bit...no VERY pressurising. Some more playing with all the basketballers and footballers in my house, they were very competitive...and I had no confidence that the boys would pass to me so I just did my very best defending...and I think it pressured the opponents. But I got tired out easily. Stamina is so low. I was so nervous I'd make a mistake..therefore I did make mistakes when catching the ball. I havn't played for so long so I'm really sorry. But still...I was scared of playing against Callisto cos the girls were all netballers. But we beat them in end. We won all the houses except Triton and I do not know what our end position was. 2nd isit?
I left at the prize-giving ceremony with permission from Zaki and Shafiqah to go to Songfest. Hoon, Christina and me plus Germaine cabbed there so we'd make it on time with good seats. We were trying to pass by that Mister. And we were so scared that we'll get caught or what because the whole school was still at the track for prize-giving. Christina a;ready asked her friend to save us seats. Husna and Haziq came later. Sakinah and Hani, Pamela, and Syazwan were waiting for me at the Audi benches for me to pass them their tickets. When I came, the first three were together and I realised they were classmates and they realised that they were all waiting for the same girl to give her tickets. SO FUNNY! And Syazwan, very baik, go and tell me that his friend had extra ticket so he didn't need my ticket. So I had one extra ticket in the end. Which was sad because I knew 2 peeps who wanted to go but had no tix.
3. Songfest at TPJC '08
I saw Jonathan at the bus stop in the morning and he asked me if I was going...OF COURSE LAH! haha...I totally forgot that he would, of course, be competing...in the FINALS.
Man Khai, u don't know what u missed. HAHA... It so totally rocked and the SC who organised it managed everything very well. THANK YOU SEAN for all the tickets...12 in total. HAHAH.
I still like 'The One I Love' more than the song that Daryl sang that night. But it was cool. Hahah..I think I lost 1/4 of my voice from screaming.
I was supporting: Daryl, Visa, Tara, Aliya, Jonathan
Sean's video was nice! The songfest posters were nice! Good job lah to all the peeps! Everyone dressed really fantabulously!
Daryl got First Runner UP!!!! And a lot of vouchers! Shopping mall vouchers and HMV vouchers...HRMPH...
Ding Jie, me and Christina gave Daryl a bunch of flowers...that does not qualify for a bouquet. Hahah! Met Mr Adrian Tan again!!! HE ROCKS ROCKS ROCKS! hahha...
and Atiqah Lokman, Sarah, Ali, Banu, Nadiah, Amirah, Siti Safiyah, Hisyam...the whole PAE class of 08S27...and also...Shermaine, Cheryl (PE CLASS), HAMAIZAH!!! again... aka Hammy. I still feel so happy when I see her. Haiz...Amira Razali, JOCELYN!, Kailin (so sorry I brushed you aside, I was looking for my handphone)
Me; Christina; Pei Rong!
Me; Christina; Jasmine! Jonathan and me! HAHAH Jonathan Bao Bao! Our guitar Shifu.
Syahidah; Jackson; Boo; ME!; Christina.
Daryl; Pei Rong ( am i allowed to upload this photo? hee...)
Then, Daryl,Pei Rong, Boo, Jackson, Ding Jie, me and Christina went to CC Macs to fill our rumbling tummies. We met Syahidah outside and she wanted to join us. I think half of the people at the extension room at Macs were people from TPJC and some I know by face, some I know personally...haha...this is the 2nd time I lepak there. HEE HEE...so nice lah..
I took many many more photos but they're all with Syahidah, Hamaizah, Ding Jie (ok he just gave me his share), Christina..and one is with Atiqah. HAHA... LOVE THE DAY and NIGHT...
so VIDEOS now lah okk...even though it takes a looong time to upload
DARYL ( 1st runner up- SOLO) :
haha..the microphone kept hitting him. AND guess who were the ones saying " I LOVE YOU!"- Jasmine and Jocelyn! hahaha...cute twins la they. I really like the strumming!
READY. SET. ZAP ( 1st runner up- GROUP)
HAHA...when the curtain opened i was already impressed. Because it was different..and there were fairy lights strung..HAHA NICE. hahah...then I saw it was Jonathan singing...EVEN MORE impressed. haha aiyahh... Jonathan...everything you can do...guitar.drums. SING...
The co-ordination was fantastic and the feeling was natural...haha
ok I am no judge...so just ENJOY...
I'll upload the rest later because JON JON is waiting to see himself. HAHAHA....
XOXO N U R S A F I A H wants to hold on to this moment
haha...i don't know if this is the real translation, i just happened to see it after seeing the video. It's a really nice and simple song. Now I always sing it with Samantha or Xavier. And when I sang the first part of the chorus, which is the only part I know, Martin asked me if I'm really NOT Chinese. HAHAHA. Which reminds me that Sean just asked me if I'm half Chinese. HEHX.
constant playback known presence stops when i pick up my violin
The meaning is really pretty...
Qian Li Zhi Wai by Jay Chou
Awake from the dream, who stands near the window and opened (our/the) ending chapter? The future that is thinner than the wings of a cicada, cannot handle the opening from anyone.
The roof feels like the edge of the cliff, The wind bell sounds like the endless ocean, I waited for the swallow to come back. Time is being arranged (by fate) to perform a coincidence, and you are leaving quietly.
The story is located outside of the city, the mist isn't cleared, (I am) unable to see (your) reply. You did not hear, wind does not exist, it was my sigh.
I walked with you until you left, outside of thousands of miles, you have no replies. In this silent dynasty, maybe I should not fall in love from a distance. I walked with you until you left, outside of the end of the sky, are you still there? Where is the sound of the instrument from? How can I predict whether you are alive? I will use my lifetime, to wait.
With a full set of white clothing, transparenting(??) my sadness about your spotless love. You came from rain, poetically converting my sadness, I stayed in that rain (till) now. Flowers can still be picked from the lake, the shadow of the boat still remains, but you will not come back. (These things are) being dusted with time, the blossom you mentioned, became an empty promise.
how poignant and...
XOXO N U R S A F I A H loves her violin again
P.S. I met Najihah yesterday, somehow she made me realise that it'll all be allright soon. Thanks Naj. And YES we found our poem book! YAY!!!
P.P.S Econs notes and Geog notes and havn't finish Sylvia Plath YET! GRRR...i hate myself now.
and sometimes, songs keep reminding me... @ 12:12 am
especially now. the songs.....oh gosh. Everytime I hear lyrics that synchronise to what I'm feeling in my heart, it'll be number one on my charts.
but I'm so saaad that Kevin left the group! :( WHY!!! Kevin is the one who i like most in the BSB and the one who can sing the best! Gosh...okok. Read the lyrics first then listen to the song. I have never stopped liking BSB ok even though the name sounds funny now. They should be Backstreet Men. HAHAH!
Trouble Is- Backstreet Boys
How come you never know What you got until it's gone Too bad Because I never felt so good with anyone How fooled was I into thinking I was gonna be alright Okay Fine
So every day I try a little harder To forget her Lie here convince myself Tomorrow will be better
The trouble is I can't get her out of my mind When I close my eyes at night Who's gonna save me Now she's gone The trouble is there's a part of me That still can't let go of her memory And now I know what it is Love is what the trouble is
Love is what the trouble is
How come she said You never wear your heart Where I can see Too bad Cause now I'm the one Who's sorry How stupid was I into thinking I was gonna be alright Okay Fine
So everyday I find a little something To remind me No matter how I try I can't put the past behind me
Love has let me go I'm alright, I'm okay I'll be fine, give it time
it's tiring to be happy all the time; emo day @ 9:36 pm
Am so tired cos of Guitar orientation. Yes. This is how bad my stamina is at the moment. Run around school a bit and POOF my body is so tired. My immunity is sooo BAD.
Ok. I miss Daryl a lot. So Daryl if you're reading this, please don't ask me to stop missing you because it's a feeling and I can't make feelings from going away until it does.
Today I missed Jonathan too because it's the first time going to a guitar meeting with no friendly Jonathan's face. And his piercing. And his pro guitar skills. And yeah I kinda miss his friendly voice.
I miss Najihah also. Cos of the fact that she'll go around asking if everything is okay and me being SUCH a pro at guitar will always make funny faces at her, and tell her about the latest news of me and we'll share some insiders cousin-ny joke. GOSH...
ok ok Safiah stop it. You're starting to tear.
And sometimes, especially at this period of time, I cry myself to sleep because I feel so insecure. I don't know about what. My future? My friendships? My life?
Yes I know I shouldn't feel like this. I might as well have stayed in TPJ if I'm always returning back or missing people. But it's too late and in my BRAIN, MJ is the right choice because I really feel like I can study in MJ. If I was hardworking and self-disciplined and brave enough, I'd have stayed. But I'm not. I'm really not. So yeah. Too bad I just had to sacrifice my heart for my brain and future. Who asked me to be so lazy?
Atikah and me felt so unwelcomed or some feeling like that just now. I had to console her a lot. It's just if some people don't know how to welcome other people, it's not their fault right? Nobody taught them. All their life they only knew that the differentiation of 48x is 48 and so on.
I just expect everything to get better in time....as it is supposed to heal everything else. Because now it hurts a lot. So this is why, this song is just going loop-de-loop in my w910i.
Better in Time- Leona Lewis
It's been the longest winter without you I didn't know where to turn to See somehow I can't forget you After all that we've been through
Going coming thought I heard a knock Who's there no one Thinking that I deserve it Now I realise that I really didn't know If you didn't notice you mean everything Quickly I'm learning to love again All I know is I'm gon' be ok
Thought I couldn't live without you It's gonna hurt when it heals too It'll all get better in time And even though I really love you I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to It'll all get better in time
I couldn't turn on the TV Without something there to remind me Was it all that easy To just put aside your feelings
If I'm dreaming don't wanna laugh Hurt my feelings but that's the path I believe in And I know that time will heal it
If you didn't notice boy you meant everything Quickly I'm learning to love again All I know is I'm gon' be ok
Since there's no more you and me It's time I let you go So I can be free And live my life how it should be No matter how hard it is I'll be fine without you Yes I will
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on the brighter side of life, the day started with 08A301 reminisicing on old boyband songs and I was singing and singing with Martin. Then we started to reminisce about childhood TV shows. I remember there was this one show on Kids Central where there was a clown on a HUGE sofa. Then, Dexter's Lab, Mummies Alive..haiz..that was good fun.
The Sizzling Western food in our canteen can be eaten by Muslims now. YAY!
However, I really DO NOT LIKE the cleanliness of the canteen. EEE gosh. Everytime I go there I shiver. WHY WHY WHY?
And it's so easy to get stains on the MJ uniform. Like mysteriously, out of nowhere and somehow, they are there! Tsk.
I've been elected Vice Chairperson for temporary Class Commitee.
Q:Where is my life going to go? A: I don't know but for the next 18 months, STUDYING is your main priority.
WHAT A LIFE.
Oh and Thank You sooo much to Shafiq for supporting me during the "speeches". Farnie! Thanks to Samantha for being my listening ear at the start of my emo day.
Thanks to Jannah for always picking up the phonecalls when I'm always lost and don't know where the class is.
Thanks to Christina for giving me the hug that I needed. Thanks for introducing me to your classmates. I can only remember Salihin and Azrul and Aida and Kamal.
Thanks to Mark for always giving me reasons to smile at the end of the day. And everyone is talking about Mas Selamat. T.T Everywhere I go. Class, hairdresser. I hope everyone will be safe and everything will be over..
If I should die before I wake Because you took my breath away Losing you is like living in a world with no air, oh
I’m here alone, didn’t wanna leave My heart won’t move, it’s incomplete Is there an other way I can make you understand?
But oh Do you expect me, to live alone with just me? ‘Cause my world revolves around you It’s so hard for me to breathe
Tell me how I’m supposed to breathe with no air? Can’t live, can’t breath with no air That’s how I feel whenever you ain’t there There’s no air, no air
Got me out here in the water so deep Tell me how you gon’ be here without me? If you ain’t here I just can’t breathe There’s no air, no air
I walked, I ran, I jumped,I flew Right off the ground to float to you There’s no gravity to hold me down, for real
But somehow I’m still alive inside You took my breath but I survived I don’t know how but I don’t even care
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Najihah, remember the time we had that small book we're supposed to pass to each other everytime we meet? That book of poems we really liked. Where is it now? :)
The video above is not the real official music video. They won't let me copy the codes :( The real video is really very nice. Click here to see.
JANNAH SEXY SEVENTEEN!
1. Shafienas bought Jannah a cream roll from the Recharge stall From left; Fazari, Siti, Me and Shafienas. We all stare at Jannah eating the cake longingly...except Shafienas...since she is so happy that she bought Jannah a present..
2. We all TRY to get a bite. Fazari wants to snatch. Jannah says "OI!" Siti wants to hit Jannah with a ....shoebag?! Shafienas says....let's drink this drink instead!
3. At the end of the day, the nice one gets a feeding from the birthday girl while the naughty Fazari sulks at one corner...
Family photo! Missing in picture: Shafiq and Nadirah(photographer).
Fairies in the air...
Safiah: FACE OFF AH...
BOO!
council nominees; all the best to all deserving nominees
Voting through SMS. Extra lah Musfirah and Wirda! teehee...
But we got bored and our legs and backs so cramped from sitting on the floor...
Got ready with Christina. We were so pissed at the fact that we were treated like prisoners. ARGGS. So she asked her dad to send her her stuff. So pissing offing. Haiz..Phobos plus Callisto!
I dinnoe my hair grew THIS long...
YAY! Found a french-braider in school! THANKS RIKA!!! Muackz! Btw...i LOVE th triton cheerleadingdisplay..ROKCS..no wonder they won...and i love your shirts lahh...NICE okay.
Time to try french braiding Christina's hair. CHOPPED: Failure....
Shila is ATLAS' Cheerleader! SO CUTE!
08A301! Plus Musfirah sesat...Phobos and Atlas had to seat at the tentage...haiz.
Daryl got First Runner UP!!!! And a lot of vouchers! Shopping mall vouchers and HMV vouchers...HRMPH...
Me; Christina; Pei Rong!
Me; Christina; Jasmine!
Jonathan and me! HAHAH Jonathan Bao Bao! Our guitar Shifu.
Syahidah; Jackson; Boo; ME!; Christina.
Daryl; Pei Rong ( am i allowed to upload this photo? hee...)