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Wednesday, November 26, 2008/
just a wish @ 10:27 pm
I wish so much that Mrs Chong didn't reschedule the attachment and made it 2 days later because I miss so much on the first 3 days of December.
I'll be late for Class BBQ. I'm missing out on being with ChildAid 2009 and thus, the IN Crowders... aww
but I guess I spent the Monday and Tuesday well too. HAHA. Went to Courts to survey laptop and to The Central at Clarke Quay. Sim Yee's right. They have a lot of my kind of stuff. And guess what. They're expensive too.. haiz.. which are so not in my league.
Tomorrow is Thursday and then, Friday, I'll not be going for work but going to school instead for Guitar Camp. And I'd have missed out a lot because I missed playing the second half of the first piece- Dance of the Yao People and I haven't even taken a look at the second piece, the french on one. I'm dreading coming back because I'll be lost. As usual. And I got to cram practising it. Since I am Section Leader. HAIZ. And I got to make sure my section goes well. But how do I ensure that when I'm not even sure sometimes? NYAAA! Plus my fingering and theirs is so different! I hope King and Max helps me out. A lot. GOSH. I think when I come back, my section's gonna lead me instead. AHHHH. Gosh. What a lousy SL I am. I feel so bad.
But camp will be fun. Whole of Friday and Saturday....
Friday night, my batch netballers are going to have dinner together and I will miss it. GOSH. I'm missing a lot for this attachment. BAHH!!! I better put in my all and maybe do extra stuff so the DD will be so impressed she'll right a wonderfully glowing report. Haiz...
So I will only be free on Saturday night.
Then Sunday, I got to clean up my room.
I don't know when you will arrive.
Monday is back to work again and then after that I got to rush to Pasir Ris Park for class bbq. I hope mum lets me go and I hope they'll let me off early since I missed Friday's early release. Then Tuesday, back to work Wednesday, it'll be my last day.
After that, homework, study revise study, a bit of holiday, family, and bye bye to all the NS people... yikes.
And then before I know it, it's Christmas, the sales will be up, the post-xmas sales, then New Year then school starts. Lectures, orientation period, lectures..study study, and then A levels. And then, my own schoolmates will be going for NS. How weird. And then..we will all go uni. Insya'allah. Am I thinking too far ahead? No. It's just reality. Time passes fast when you're busy being busy. You just try to pepper in some fun in between. *smiles**
Azmi's going in in January or February, I can't remember. But since he got PES C, he can only do clerk work or at best, medical officer.
Oh I just realised I only have to work 10 days instead of 14. I counted in weekends too. Haha. So that changes the whole fraction. HAHAH. I'm almost done. ALMOST.
I don't think I had a peaceful sleep. Kept waking up to check my phone. For a haha reason.
The first time I woke, it was 2am. Got a message. Then I woke again at 5 am. I'm supposed to wake at 6 am. My alarm is supposed to go off at 6.
I slept until mum woke me up for Subuh. AHH it was 6.50+ already!!!! GAHH! Why didn’t the alarm ring WHY WHY WHY?
Looked at my phone.... Oh.
I set it at 7am. NYA! I must have been too sleepy yesterday night and pressed 7 instead of 6 when setting alarm. GRRtoot.
Wasn’t a restful sleep. It’s those type where you keep waking up and you feel like you only slept for maximum, 1 hour. I woke up and had puffy eyes. I have no idea why. I put on St Ives Eye Gel. Ooh. Nice. That feels better.
But, cool, cool. I’m not late. I had time to eat breakfast, play with Ilhan for a bit and wait for my other brother to. Adik had soccer so he wanted to go Bedok Interchange to meet his friends for soccer match with Fuchun Sec. Knowing that I’ll be taking MRT, he changed his plans of taking bus to take. Aww… still can squeeze quality time with Adik.
I took 7.45am train and arrived at Orchard Station at 8.15am. I have 3 more days till my library books are due. So I’ve been trying to make travelling time, reading time too. Bahh.. so many books so little time. I think I still have 3 more books to read! GAHH! Yesterday, I was early so I sat on the MRT towards Pasir Ris so that I’d get to seat all the way to City Hall Interchange. I was feeling sick too yesterday so I just slept the whole journey. I think it really helped me feel better the whole day yesterday.
And Jenny just plonked a cup of something liquid and hot on my table.
“What’s this?”
“It’s for your throat.” “Oh. Orh, thanks!” *Jenny sits back to seat**I take a peek at the drink. Hoping it’s not coffee cos I don’t drink coffee. Now come to think about it. Coffee’s not really for the throat is it? HAHA. Oh lookeehere…it’s LEMON HONEY!!! AHHH. Jenny’s da BOMB! WOO** “Thanks so much Jenny!” “No problem.”
I think she may feel a tad guilty for passing germs to me. Poor Jenny. YIKES. I hope she gets better soon. Coughing away…
I haven’t logged on to MSN while working for 2 days. I don’t want to start now anyways.
I need to type out notes from the meeting, which looks very menacing cos it looks so pro and the members all want the minutes so it all depends on me. WAHHH. 0.0 And after lunch, got to continue with the article search. Got my first draft of the summaries back. Need to make some changes.
Howells, let’s see what today will bring.
AND,
HAPPY 18th Birthday SEAN! (: Singapore misses having a Sean Ang Hong Da on it’s land. NYAHAHAS.
In the morning, the meeting we prepared for commenced. Lay Hong and me had to arrange the tables and chairs cos the room we booked didn't have them. Yikes. We managed to make the room look meeting-ly. Then I had to take down the minutes of the things discussed. Very interesting...but there was so many things that they wanted but there's not enough resources I guess. Haiz. Refreshments was nice. Especially when I still feel a bit flu-ey and teh tarik was so sedap. Just like how it's supposed to taste. (:
Today, had lunch with Jenny, Sook Ching, Lay Hong, Dennis and one other Guidance Officer. Then, a teacher from Geylang Methodist joined us. He was there for training. There was a loooot of stuff to be said by them. WOO it's just interesting to sit in and listen to them back n forth. Sook Ching is so cute and funny. HAHA she makes me laugh a lot. And there are some stuff which they ask me not to bring back to my friends cos it's kinda "bad image" but it's kinda the truth too. Then they'll say "You did not hear that ah!" haha...
So I sent in my first draft of summary and now I have to finish typing out minutes for the notes, do article search for curriculum infusion & integration and get back the drafts and see what I need to do. Work gets tougher but I really learn a lot. (:
After work, met with MJI cos they finished their picnic/bday bash at Botanic Gardens. Called Jannah. Didn't know where they were going cos they just exited the place. Called Fazari. Next time, I should really NOT call Jannah cos she just follows them. WaHHAH. Jannah ALWAYS does not know where they're going. So I told Fazari to go Wheelock place but they missed the stop so I met them at McCafe at Lido. Just sat a while and chatted for around an hour. Farouk, Fazari, Azrul, Jannah, Musfirah, Wida, Munirah and Siti. They ordered some drinks but I wanted to save money. HAAH. And I wanted to go home early cos tomorrow there's work still + I'm a bit sick + didn't want to miss Maghrib. It was nice seeing them after not seeing them for so long. Got used to seeing them on weekdays.
Tomorrow's OGL camp and I can't go. NYAH!
I feel better today from the flu. But Dennis and Jennifer who sits in the cubicles in my section are all passing around the virus. WAHHHH... so I drank plenty of water and equipped myself with Strepsils Vit C and I drank the Vit C that mum bought from the Homeopathy clinic. WOO. I hope I'll be safe. I ALWAYS am the one of the first to get sick. HAIZ...
Pamela just called and said that the Ex-INCrowders are invited to join the annual end of year trip and this time it's to KL. It costs S$400. I just want to go for the company. I've seen KL in and out. THE STAR would most probably be like the ones that we saw in Bangkok and Beijing. Nya... I want to gooo but we're not subsidised anymore. I'm working but I'm not getting paid. I want to get a laptop. I shouldn't go. But I want to go. But Liyana's not going anyway. AH I shouldn't go. I've been to KL millions to times. So. What else is there to see is there? The schools? I know what they're like.
I want to ask for early leave. I want to sleep...but I gotta cut these name placards. Well then, I guess it's good that I'm just doing manual labour, which doesn't require the use of my brains...
**ahh my mucus turning to a sickly colour**
sheesh my cubicle below the aircon..nyaaa.
ok so what good and nice and happy things happened today?
1.My mentors brought me to Botanical Gardens' foodcourt to eat. One of them lent me her Civil Service card so I got 10% discount of food.
2. Someone complimented my dress. Love it. The last time someone complimented my top was my Lit teacher, John, in Cambridge, UK. WAHAH. Never had a man say that my top was unique and nice. HAHA... must be the English people. Or must be my horrible dressing sense? No actually I think I dress well enough. haahahaha.. howells, it is nice to be complimented. It is nice to give out compliments. I don't think I'd shy away from complimenting my friends or sometimes, close teachers but an acquaintance... I don't usually do that. HAHA. And I don't compliment people so that people can compliment me.
Oh it's 6pm already. I can leave now. But I think I'll finish up this post. NYAHAS.
3. I was introduced to the Deputy Director. She's niiice. They're all very caring here and very nurturing.
HAHA.
One of my mentors, Jenny just asked me if I've considered a degree in Teaching and I said, " Well it came across my mind." and she replied, "Don't think!"
"What do you mean? You mean, just do it?" "Yes, but for your age, hrmm.. ok la think la"
Seriously though, there is a shortage of Teachers out there. I remember in Secondary school, Sec 2 especially, our class kept having relief teachers it was so frustrating.
Still, the teaching career has become much more dynamic now. There's a lot of opportunities to grow. (: But a large part of my family are teachers. And 2 are becoming lawyers and one wants to go into the medicine after NS.
Gosh gosh, so many options... what to do what to do?
And erm, one of the Specialists thought I was a teacher, and Jenny thought I was J2. WOOAHH. Actually, am used to it. HEE HEE.
Ok.
4/14 2/8
Let's go home now Safiah...long train ride, no seat, sick, wants to read book. Aww....
Well at least I'm not starving today (: And I feel better than when I first started blogging.
I think I will blog about WHAT I do for my attachment soon since so many people are asking. And. I have ideas ideas ideas. WOOTS. Better write them down soon.
Murderous crow, hey what you know What you reading about, what you hold in your toes Is that a twig, are you a dove of peace A black dove undercover, with another puzzle piece Are you a riddle to solve all along? Or am I over thinking thoughts of human after all
Only human Made of flesh, made of sand, made of you and me
Woo much better. N today i brought my muesli bars, chocolate bars n biscuits. M waiting for my mentors to brief me 4 nxt assignment cos i finished 2 slots earlier. Oh mentors... Where r yous.
Called Sade during lunch. Some people just r 2 childish. Dont worry much k, some people change but let's hope they change some more. For the good this time. N i love you. :)
K. Can't wait for gng home time. Tee hee.
I guess i could start the next assignment on my own...
XOXO N U R S A F I A H (Blogged w/phone)
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Office cubicle yesterday @ 1:25 pm
Everything was everywhere n disorganized n messy.
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Wednesday, November 19, 2008/
Attachment Day 1 @ 9:30 pm
Woo.
Had to reach at 8.30am. Got out of house at 7.15am.
Reached quite early but cos I got lost... so I reached just on time... kept walking and walking, passing Borders, all the rich ppl's houses and then... TEACHER'S NETWORK. YAY YAY YAY. Haha.. Though, erm, Sean's directions didn't help much. Nyahaha. nevermind, i forgive you. Cos you just kinda woke up.
So, first assignment, READ what Mental Health and Social Emotional Learning is all about. So that at the end of the week, I can summarise it and they can put it in the Holistic Health Toolkit. NYAHAHAS... Somehow, reading it all, I felt that I have seen all the content somewhere before. All these about taking care of your mental and emotional health.
Also, there was a case study.. HAHAHAH. It was very coincidental and all that. I have my own cubicle. YAY! and my own computer. YAY! and my own telephone... but I don't use it.
Office location is quite... far from cheap food places. Colleague says cafeteria not nice so she brought me to Nasi Padang at River Valley. Her name is... *drumroll**** SITI SAFIAH!!! ahahahaha... wahhaha. I've met a Siti Safiyah before. She's working there but cos she's the youngest so she thought we could get along together. I guess first days are usually the quietest? But I guess I got the feeling that we can't really click. HAHA. Though she works in admin and I work more closely with the psychological resources part. So we don't work together.. ho humm. But she showed me Great World City, which is kinda 'great'.
After lunch, did Excel stuff...Ctrl + F is my best friend today. WHOOP DE DOOP. But I was so hungry the whole time I was sitting in that office cubicle. Is it me? or is the office? or is it the fact that I was sitting so still. How could I get hungry? I didn't even do that much right? Besides sitting still and doing work?
So, I am quite happy that I only have 2 weeks of this. If this is my real job I think I may want to cry. Unless I have a stash of chocolates/old chang kee curry puffs, then I would be happy. I was thinking of the Cadbury Boost I left in my fridge and how I wished I brought it along with me. Oh and the Cadbury Fruit and Nut bar.... I'll bring it tomorrow. GOSH me ah..Oh and I would need those osim massage chairs. Or one for the head. WOOTS.
But my mentors are all very nice. Though one of them said, "Thank you sooooo much for coming in. We really need help around here". I was kind of scared at that. HAhA. But then, my cubicle neighbour said, "No lah, don't worry, we will sayang her." hahah so cute.
But they really look busy. They were rushing in and out of the office.
Also, I was too caught up wanting to finish one section of my collating stuff that I didn't realise EVERYONE in the office was gone except me. And ALL the lights and aircon were turned off except my part. WAHHHH. So I hurriedly packed my stuff and switched off the computer. GOSH. Kind of scary when it's all dark...
YEEKS
ok anyways, I'll send the pic of my cubicle frm my phone. Toodles.
I'm really tired cos I had an empty stomach and it was cold and then it was raining outside so I got even colder and THEN i think I DID stretch some when but it wasnt enough.
Haiz...
1/14
XOXO N U R S A F I A H needs a massage... and snacks and snacks and snacks
Somehow, it's okay that we didn't finish in time for all the topics for Econs that we were supposed to finish before 2009 started.
And.
Recap on what I've been doing.
8 November, Saturday
Early morning, took 8 all the way to Toa Payoh. Nice to remember the route all the way to Cedar. Then had the Tea Session for Camp Vivant. Only Meridian. NYEH. Very interesting things discussed. Had Old Chang Kee munchies.
Then, went to meet Sean and Amirah for lunch at the T2 Staff Canteen at Airport. Though they were studying for A levels. Then Zikri came... haha brought Nasi Lemak, forgot to bring it with him, asked his dad to bring it. Haha...funny.
Then, bought Shafiq's present: files, cos his papers are always everywhere and went to Jannah's house for Fried Mars Bars, movie marathon and Shafiq's "surprise" party with MJI. Oh he's at Dubai now. I wonder how he's enjoying himself. We didn't see him off but I think we're gonna greet him when he returns. Anyways, it wasnt really that much of a surprise cos he already saw the candles and the nice things we made cos he snooped around in the kitchen. The class saw him do tt, ok at least the MJI part of 08A301, and I just wanted to scream but I couldnt take it so I went in to the room nearest the kitchen, Jannah's room and SCREAMED into the mattress. Jannah and Fazari were already there I think. GOSH. Jannah's mum's laksa is nice. Photos are from Jannah... as usual.
from left: Jannah, Wida, Shafienas, Siti, Me, Nadirah, Munirah, Azrul, Shafiq, Farouk (back) and Fazari.
2nd round of Fried Mars Bars... it's really nice when the inside is all melted and the outer covering is still crunchy and the ice cream is still not so melted. Yups.
SHAFIENAS FRYING MARS BARS... it's like frying bananas... i mean.. pisang goreng like tt.. ahha.
The rest of the class made this. I just bought the presents. AND whoever made the card... it's reallly nice! Cos Shafiq's going to Dubai for his Global Immersion Programme so... it's really fitting. HAHAH and when we surprised him, he act cute only. BWEKS.
10 November, Monday
I made engraved toast for breakfast. NYAHAHAs. WITH Ya Kun Kaya Toast. NYAHA... oh then I ate with Shafienas at BBQ Chicken on the hot pink sofas. Gosh this seems like ages ago.
11 November, Tuesday
felt upset
12 November, Wednesday
rushed, cried. fell.
13 November, Thursday
Came too early for lectures. Lectures started at 10.25. So. HAHA had breakfast. So spontaneous. Was drizzling. 14 November, Friday
Back aches. OW OW OW. Whole day was movie day. Shakespeare in Love for Literature. Children of Brothel for Urban Geog lecture. Then some of them went to watch Kabhi Kushi Kabhi Gham... is it spelled like that? O.o while I went home, took forty winks because was really tired and sleepy and then dad sent me and Ilhan to Najihah's. Sabrina, Nadiah and Farah were already there since 1.30 and I think I reached home only at 1.30pm. So, they bought snacks and drinks and I had lunch and fed Ilhan his lunch. THEN we started watching MY GIRL instead of GOONG. Which is allright cos I've been wanting to watch MY GIRL since after Os but the first 4 episodes were missing cos Najihah's cousins on the other side borrowed it. SO it was really allright, the show is nice. Watching it back to back with my girl cousins are nice. But we didn't stay up the whole time. We watched from 3pm to 1am on the first day and then the next morning, had Macs breakfast delivery and started back at 10am. It was done only at 10pm with all the NGs and bloopers which is really cute.
I invited Amirah and Kak Noi but they're not really into these type of activities. Anyway, the aunts and uncles ended up dropping by and Mak Chor ended up watching a large part of it too. Sabrina and Farah had to leave for some parts cos of music but it's allright cos they watched it already last year. And we had to take breaks off for solat and lunch and all and we ended up playing the piano and sometimes I took the guitar to play. Me and Naj tried to do a "Better In Time" by Leona Lewis, she piano, me vocals but it didn't really fit. The chords ahhah.. but it was really nice. It was a real success, this thing. ALL COS OF ME. NAYAHHAHA.. okok. WAHAH.. really serious... I thought of it. And they all wanted it and kept bugging me when the marathon would be held.
Then, my mum learnt some Korean. I LOVE YOU is SARANG HE YO.. which we all Korean freaks know a long time ago..but only after one minute, she said... "Bang, sayonara" cos she wanted to say it to my father. AHHAAHAAHAHHA.... We all burst out laughing. Everyone in the house.... "Sayonara", that's Japanese, and it means farewell. AHHA I think even my dad knew that then he said "Sarang burung lah" AHHAHHHHA... which is "bird nest" in malay. Sarang means...nest. NYEHAH.. my family my family....
But throughout, I was real tired but I didn't wanna sleep. HAHA.. cos I didn't wanna miss any of the parts.
Plus, kinda realise how some parts of my life is like a Korean drama huh? hahaha... yes yes life is weird. *BIG WINK**
*hee. pauses to smile, yes it is tiring taking care of bro, but it is a good type of tiring you know?**
and, I think I got like, TEN books to read.
Sean said he has to enlist on 11 Dec. I wonder when Azmi's gonna enlist. Well, yeah that's very very very soon... haha.. Makes me think... I remember one point of time not so long ago, when I viewed NS like so very far away from me.. like, I only saw it when Ayah Chor went for reservice, when my teachers went for reservice, when Abang Hatta enlisted when I was only in primary school? I thought it was such an adult thing, only adults did it. But now that the people around me are going NS, I think again... is it that I'm the one who's growing up, becoming an adult too or is it that they're the young ones, going in an adult world... yeah it's very fast.. In Secondary school, there was the anniversary of NS. Then, Straits Times did a special on it. There were all the interviews, the flashback of what the uniforms look like now, the different divisions, the stories about the scary officers. Even before this, there were the ghost stories told in primary school... NS is like... haha.. fascinating. Now, I wonder when the rest of the j2s gonna enlist.
Haiz...
What will happen what will happen... i dunno...
Well.. the week seemed reallly long. And I'm really forgetful I can't remember what happened in my week so I need to recap. Weeks seem long to me nowadays. Is it cos school's over? FINALLY? don't think so... since I'm in JC, Weeks are looong.
Ok now,
TO DO LIST: Korean Drama Series Marathon
oh because of this, I proposed to Naj that we go take Korean language classes. NAYHAHAA. Since we were already spewing out some words.
Room Makeover Relearn J1 Content Read Shakespeare's Othello and King Lear. and if have time, Romeo and Juliet (out of syllabus but still, it's nice) BUY PLANNER (or should I deco again? arrgs traumatising) Learn SYF piece till the end Attachment Guitar Camp Orientation Spend as much time as possible with the people I love. (: Watch more Korean movies/series. AHHHH hahaha.. Watch more movies lah... Read finish all those books Learn more songs to play on guitar. (SIDENOTE: Get a Capo. Gosh, Elliot was supposed to get for me and now I can't get it) Oh. Exercise more. Yupps. (:
I really feel accomplished and efficient lately. NYAHAHA.
XOXO N U R S A F I A H Sarang he yo ! boku mo aisheteru (:
drew my thoughts with childhood crayons @ 11:50 pm
wax crayons, very therapeutic.
so are tears. and BIG BANG. (just had to say that didn't I. tee hee) and falling. falling hard where it hurts is kinda nice. feeling pain where it doesn't really matter is kind of nice. yeesh, i sound psycho...
songs that say what your mind wanted to say? songs that say what your heart can't?
just what a coincidence... maybe we can all learn from songs huh? maybe songs were created as a audio guidebook to life, way ahead of it's time...
I hope they make this into their MV. And when I read the English translation of Foolish love, it's sad and there's reference to stuff that makes pain go away temporarily, eg: weed, smoking, alcohol, etc.. But there's a nice storyline. So I will be looking forward to more MVs. NYAHAHAs..
And I feel like buying their album but do not know where... hrmm maybe I'll check HMV like what Tara suggested. I wish Artbox sold it too, since they're Korean. Gosh I feel like Korean Invasion, cos on Monday, I ate at Korean's No. 1 Chicken Restaurant, BBQ Chicken at EHub with Shafienas with all the hot pink sofas. We purposely wanted to sit at the hot pink sofas. NYAHA.. The food is really nice. I've been making use of a lot of student meals lately cos fast food is just... too... boring and unhealthy already. Oh plus, BBQ Chicken uses only Olive Oil to fry and grill so HEALTHY! hahaha...and it's Halal la duhh... so gogogo! And I keep going Artbox. HAHA! Move over Japs, Koreans are all taking over. NYAHAAHs. Well at least in my world.. ho humm... well actually, was never really that into Jap stuff too. Tee Hees...
Big Bang- Foolish Love
I'm not like fanatical crazy over Big Bang la.. I don't do tt. I only reserve it for Taufik Batisah but seriously if Big Bang came to town, I think I would like to see them too xD
and I've really been wanting to by something from Fila, maybe a good strong bag for school but the designs now are not nice. AND THEN, news of Big Bang doing some designs for Fila. Quote: " There are also plans to release FILA Big Bang limited edition items to be released in mid-December." WAHAH. Gosh... amazing how some things click together. But me am just able to hope hope hope that the collection would come to Singapore because they look kinda rawking too. =D
Photoshoot:
I like 1:48 cos Tae Yang asked: "Can I hug you" haahah that part was sweet. The girl's cute.
And though the song, Sunset Glow SOUNDS happy... I checked the English translation and it's really actually very sad too. It's kind of makes me feel empty how the video is happy but the meaning of the song is sad it just really changes things. HAHA or maybe it's just me.
Listening to Haru Haru... somehow, I really like how it sounds, especially when you're feeling kinda low.
I told Muhaina a lot of things. She's the only one who knows everything.
All my ramblings. Even though I didn't really like to talk to her about our religion cos I know who she is. Still, she's the most solid ground I have right now. Cos Shahini is somewhere in Limbo.
And it's weird how... everyone has problems all at the same time. It's weird how everything happens all at the same time. It's weird how some of them find me all at the same time. It's weird.
Right now, a lot of people want me to talk to them but I just want to be alone. But because there is this thing called love, I shall overlook this matter and call the hurt person now. Well maybe after this. Hrmm...
Haiz... I guess that's what true love is huh? I guess that's what true volunteering is about.
When you don't really see any benefit for yourself. When you don't think that it can even bring you happiness. When you can only see that by helping that person, you'll help that person and that will make the person feel better. Even though you really feel low. Because you know, that person really needs your help. Even if by helping that person, it will really not bring any good to you, or any bad. It just... is like that. That's what's been kinda in my head since the Tea Session for Camp Vivant! Which I'm not sure I will go to even if I get accepted in. Because I need to spend time with my family. I need to give them one month of my time from the rest of the 11 that the school took from me, that the ministry took from me.
And then, even more, I've begun to think about what true love is. I never really thought about it, I kinda just accepted it as what it was. They always say that a mother's love is always true. Well for most sane mothers. But I never really understood why. I guess it's cos a mother really really never thinks about herself. Even if it's the last thing she'd rather do for her family, she'll still do it if it's for the benefit of her family. I guess that's what I am beginning to learn. Even though I'd rather hang out with my friends till late, spend the whole day/ night online talking to some people, I would have to entertain my brother, take care of him, make him happy. Even though it does make me smile when I see him smile, it gets tiring when I come home really tired or just want time alone, really just want time alone. Even though I have no mood.
I guess my other brother is beginning to learn that too. I can see the change in him. He used to always think about himself. I used to argue with him to be more selfless, think about other people more. It's not that I'm perfect but just.. it's harder for guys to accept. Furthermore, for him, he was the baby of the house for 14 years and now there's a newcomer. I was the only child for only two years and I don't even remember what that felt like. He was the one who got to be manja for all his life. So he took a longer time to adjust.
See? Everything happens for a reason.
But I'm thankful cos I remember how I asked God everyday, every prayer time for another sibling. I didn't know why I wanted one. I think, even with my brother around, it got lonely. Cos we were growing apart. I'm thankful cos Ilhan brought the whole family together. We learnt how to be stronger. We learnt how to be selfless. I learnt how to sacrifice for Ilhan. It's really wonderful how he came into our life. I still remember the shock when my mum told me the news. How I was so happy I couldn't believe it but I was so thankful. So thankful I wanted to cry. I never till now, I never regret having a baby brother this late in my life. The gap is big, yes. I get mistaken for his mother sometimes, yes. But he is my training course. He prepares me for when I have mine in the future, insya'allah.
**Break to call*** gotta put aside this feeling for a while.
OOOOOHHHH. BIG BANG GOT NEW ALBUM NEW ALBUM!!!
Oh gosh. Man, seriously, the last time I felt so excited when any artiste came up with a new album to was Taufik Batisah. Anyways, acoustic acoustic acoustic version of Haru Haru... this means... CAN PLAY ON GUITAR>>>>>>> aaaahahah.
ok obviously I'm kind of happy now. Nyahah....
Big Bang- Haru Haru (Acoustic Version)
I guess, it's how the songs make me feel. Anyways, I just don't like the rap part, the original sounded better for that right?
Big Bang- Sunset Glow [붉은노을] MV
This is so cute. HAHAHA. And happy happy happy.
ooh and xtina, shuttup. I chased after her, fell, n i think tmr i will have a big bruise on my face and hips so don't think like, tailong beat me up or something. Though tt would be v nice... like exciting huh? "oooh i got into a fight cos I was being gangster girl" HEHEHE...
Going to finish watching Gossip Girl Season 1 and am going to start on MY GIRL episode 1.
Even though day was crappy at first cos of some people, args, yeah but it had a happy ending. (:
Ate at Eighteen Chefs at East Point with Shafienas, Nadirah, Siti, Munirah and Wida. Gosh. We took 12 and overshot by one stop. And kinda realised we took the wrong bus to go to EP but cos Nas is always the Lady Boss so we just followed her. 'Cos we overshot one bus stop. We were supposed to stop at Shafiq's stop and we overshot that. Then Shafienas realised and said "Aren't we supposed to stop already?" but cos we were kindof stoned, in a way, and dazed, due to the heat, everyone was, "huh? really?". Then she said, "YEAP WE'RE SUPPOSED TO STOP HERE. GET DOWN GET DOWN!" haha. Gosh
Had to walk under the hot sun all the way to EP. Walked under the block as much as possible. Most of us were cranky, silent or plain crappy cos we were just so hungry. HAHA. So wanted aircon and a place to sit down and FOOD ASAP. Haha...
And the service was non-existent when we got there cos there was no service charge. Ok lahh.. not bad, a lot of times we had to self service, like taking our orders, taking the knives and spoons. And, waiting time was not bad too, not that long. There was free refill of ice water... All of us ordered Cheese Baked Rice with different sauces and toppings. Mine was Cheese Baked Rice with Creamy White Sauce with toppings of Chicken Sausage, Vegetables and Pan Grilled Fish. The third topping came free cos there was a promotion. Also, cos we were students, it all came with ice cream and ice lemon tea at a price of $5.15+$2(cos of extra topping). YAYYAYAYA. I'm still full even though we ate at around 2pm.
VERDICT: I LIKE IT AND WOULD RECOMMEND IT. NEXT: Fig & Olives, 2Hot Halal Cafe, Eatzi, that Sushi place beside Ramen Ten (50% of all sushis after 8.30 PM, or stg), and all Halal eating places I haven't tried yet. Nyahahhaa. But, easy on the money.
Oh, we also met Nurin, Lyana, Zahirah and Sarah there too. Haha...the place was full of students and the place had special meals for nurses too, cos EP is near Changi General Hospital... good thinking.. ho ho. It's a very students place.
N I tried a Pie Kia pie.... not bad! The pies were all selling for $1 but Sabrina and me didn't want to eat a meal there cos the soup/salad was too expensive if we wanted a meal. The soup sounds tempting though.
Watched Quantum of Solace with her yesterday and finally ate the Fishball Noodle at Food Culture for lunch... i miss it a lot cos I haven't eaten it for so loooong. She ate Tom Yum Noodle. Been a long time since I tried that...ahha next on the list. (: Quantum of Solace, another James Bond movie. This is the first time where I willingly sat down to watch a James Bond movie from start to finish. Action without intellect is not really my kind of thing. Bond just killed of all the bad guys that could actually help if questioned. And he kind of was led by revenge. Also, he's not even that charming. His seducing method was like... "bleagh" haha. Like. err? -.- ok no, more like... LAME. ahaha...
BUT the special effects was nice, especially when they had action scenes when they were falling. Initially, Bond and some guy was falling from some construction structures. That was good. But I loved the one where Bond and the Tahitian girl fell from the aeroplane and they were trying to pull out the parachute. That was great effects.
Though the storyline really was ... ermm..
But I love the Lady Boss in charge too. She kinda rawks. HAHA...
And I guess, there's a lot we don't know and there's a lot that we don't know. Guess you just have to follow your intuition when something feels wrong... or right.
Tomorrow, got to wake up early early cos there's a Tea Session at Toa Payoh Hub for Camp Vivant!. I really hope I see some Meridians there. I absolutely do not know who else signed up for this thing. HAIZ. Guess, even if I'm the only Meridian, I'll survive, like I always do, like I always have been, like what I always do. I don't wait for others I guess and there's no time to be scared of doing things alone. You'll miss out on the good things. (: I've always got into good things applying for stuff on my own (: Like INcrowd, like the attachment, like Cambridge, like the talks I've been to. Haha. YEAH GO SAFIAH (:
Sheesh. I still haven't bought monthly contact lenses. Will buy tomorrow.
well I guess I really have a lot of good friends/ true friends. Thank you very much. I love you all bunches of bananas. Good friends would never let me do anything that would potentially hurt me. I guess, that's what some of them have been trying to tell me. I do realise this and really really appreciate it.
I just hope I can pull myself out in time if something happens. So it won't be so painful. So ya, don't dig too deep Safiah. Don't ask. Really.
That's that. I won't think about this anymore. It's settled. Really. I can live. Whatever happens. Yupps. I'm strong.
a successful date... list + some movie parts @ 12:09 am
SIDENOTE: I looooove my playlist too! (: But I think I'm going to take off Sephia by Sheila On 7. It gives me the chills. BRR
1. Whee... finally finally finally after a looong time, and wanting to have a one-on-one date with Sade, cos needed to talk to her, finally finally, we went to Swensens' yesterday and had ice cream. And finally finally, she met Ilhan cos she went home with me. Then we played guitar in my room and we lay on the bed just talking. It's been a long time since I felt so girlfriend-ish doing girlfriend stuff, saying girlfriend things. Haiz. I haven't transferred the pics yet. Sade was so happy to see Ilhan... ahha. It took him quite some time to warm up to her cos he just woke up. But he started sputtering all his makcik baby talk like he understood us all perfectly, hrm... I don't doubt that he does. He's really smart. HAHA..
My baby brother ah... he only smiles AFTER the flash goes off. HAHAHA. But he gives the sweetest smile. And kids these days.. they KNOW that after you take a picture, you can see it on the screen after it's been taken. He'll laugh at it like it's the funniest thing in the world. HAHA.. like seeing his face in the screen just cracks him up like that.
And we swung on the swings... Some moments... you just want to keep forever and you just want to close your eyes and wish that there was a recording gadget that could record that moment, cos, it just brings a smile to your face.
I at Cookie Summit with Sadelena and I LOVE IT (: haha... yays..
Haiz... some moments.
2. hee... collage! decorate decorate decorate...
haiz.. holidays will never start and school will never be over
I think, deep inside me, there's a movie producer/director/graphic designer/interior designer. NYEH... haiz... I just don't know what to do with them. And they are all so underdeveloped.
I always wanted to go to a flea market. and random free things. Yeah it's my philosophy: you don't need money to have fun. nyahaas.
I want to watch:
Princess Bride
When Harry Met Sally (msg to Salomah: you don't need Ramlee, you can find a Harry! hahaha)
The Notebook
My Girl (korean drama series)
Romeo & Juliet (version Leonardo di Caprio)
The Holiday
The Day The Earth Stood Still(coming soon and starring KEANU REEVES!!! YAYAAYAY! Fav fav actor)
oh n this feels random--- When I was young, I loved watching Pocahantas, Casper and My Girl (the movie). Casper and My Girl especially... they were so sad...and... there was a genuine love parts and there was a lot of crying part. I cried for Pocahantas too. HOHOHO. My Girl is really saaaad. nyaha.
There was this quote from Casper, I find it real cute..."If I tell you I love you, can I keep you forever? " and so innocent...
man this feels like a movie post..
My favourite movies of all time:
50 First Dates
Speed
Miss Congeniality
A Walk To Remember
Lake House(even if it was a "remake" of a Korean one, i still love it cos it's the second movie where Keanu Reeves and Sandra Bullock played the leads. I love seeing them both together so much)
oh...I AM LEGEND
I bet there's more but I FORGOT or something. nyahah okok.
XOXO N U R S A F I A H hello there Guardian Angel...
I never thought of it before. I'm reading back all my archives. My life is a pattern sometimes... or rather, the things that happens to me come in the form of a pattern. I think I was the same throughout. It wasn't me, it was the people around me and how they reacted to me.. And...
yeah, my life is exciting. Always was, has been, is and will be.
Why? Cos I put in en effort to make it so. (:
XOXO N U R S A F I A H when I just can't fall asleep because reality is so much better than dreams
While having linner with Siti & Jannah.... some plans surfaced:
wake up early early, run in school, freshen up, study geog and econs (for me) during holidays. by siti, jannah & safiah. anyone up for it? no holidays for us, surely. warehouse sale updates by safiah flea markets by siti email update system by siti
MONDAY:
ATIQAH's BIRTHDAY!!! Happy Birthday Dudette. Gave her artbox cuecards...even tho her OP ended. NYAHA.. nvm can always use for next year. It's kinda funny how it was all last minute. And we played with sparklers. And Athirah came AFTER candles was blown out, bday song was sung, presents were given and asked "SITI, KAU NAMPAK SHAFIQ?" when Shafiq, organiser of the surprise was there and so was bday girl too. HEH. FARNIE. We lighted up the whistling sparklers in front of bio lab area and took piccs there.
Honestly. That day, I felt tired and was being a bit OUT, but still.... had fun. I hoped everyone enjoyed themselves. (:
Then, it was back to OP presentations...
Felt kinda of "waa-eld" (sade's word) cos it was last day we were all together. I took a lot of videos of everything. I'm more of a vid kinda girl but vids take a loooong time to upload. There's one where Gary was memorising his lines, there's one where we were all stuck in the room doing the IT dry run and everyone got crazy and Elliot was dancing away like crazy and tried to seduce Farshad at one point of time... I guess I'll just miss the times where our class was so busy doing work with other classes too and we all bonded and crap happended and Miss Rai always brought potato chips ( the one pre-oredered in bulk for Hari Raya ) to class and gave it to us)
TODAY, 041108 OP ENDED
YES YES YES.. First speaker of first group of the afternoon session and it was aaaaalll okay. Haiz. Tiring. Breaks in between. Plus, was perfect nap timing and for the rest of the OPs, where had to sit for student audience, felt so sleepy and hungry. Siti just kept turning her head and got scolded by the assessors. Elliot's group handled all the moderators well but din't acknowledge them! Nvm... but I felt the group that wasn't in our class... their presentation method didn't really sit well with me...hrmms. Too playful I guess...
I was trying to read a book. The guys played World or Warcraft... heh. Denise... was...playing with her laptop and Siti.. was obviously reading Cleo... and she spoke out loud all the wrong story titles. TSK.
I think THIS is why I look like BJ from Barney & Friends...it's the eyeeees. Or something. HEH.
Then we went to Solat & I persuaded the girls to date me for linner (lunch + dinner ) cos was soo hungry...and had some IDEAS... Told them to take pic, highlighting the red parts of our socks. Jannah's colour accent rocksss hahaah.
we rock our sockkkksss!!
We are so patriotic for our house. EH Pak Wahid/ Dol, do this for some advertisement for colloseum or something! haha..perassan. okok.. I liked how it turned out though. (:
And THIS. haha.. so (RED) campaign! Nyaha..
I arranged the stuff. Shafiq took the pic But Sean said it's kinda complicated cos too many things...hrmm yeah now I think about it... BUT it still looks like an ADVERT aaand...the RED things innit are!
1. Me&Jannah's socks 2. Jannah's red bubble tea straw 3. Jannah's pink watch strap 4. My Minnie Mouse bag (lettering and inside of straps) 5. My Spectacles 6. My Handphones 7. My badly-in-need-of-a-wash Converse shoes 8. Suite Scarlett by Maureen Johnson, book (zoom in and her lips are red toooo)
WOO HOOO NIIIICE
Dunno why felt so Fashion Editor today (nyahaha perassan) but good good burst of "creativity". WOO.
I wanna eat at Pie Kia one day! (: and... err.. Fig&Olive! all the places that we are all supposed to go eat at
Thanks to everyone who has been there for me through thick and thin. (:
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