N U R S A F I A H

Tuesday, July 11, 2006/

influence @ 9:37 pm

Books and experience are one of life's greatest lessons.

PROOFS:

Harry Potter and his Occlumency lessons with Snape. Snape says, "You've got to clear your head before you sleep. Think of nothing. That is the only way to protect yourself."

Since I read that, I usually do clear my head before I sleep. I don't think much. Just think nothing, think black, emptiness. Drive all my worries or excitement away. Now the trouble is, I don't dream anymore. Not until this person popped up. But that was because I wanted to dream. When I want to have dreams, I think of the thing I want to dream of, how I want it to go because I read somewhere that when you are about to sleep, your body is in a "hynotised" mode. It's wonderful how I can control my body.

You can control your emotion by identifying it and letting it pass.((some book I read)).

Sometimes, when I feel jealous of someone, I tell myself, "Safiah, you're being ridicoulously jealous. Stop it. This feeling is not good. You are just as good as her. Some day your time will come." Then, I'm okay again.

Or when I feel revengeful. I think about the consequences. How it is not a good thing going to sleep bearing a grudge on someone. So I just let it pass...flow out of my body.

However sometimes, I can't control my emotions. I pent it all up inside and when I get seriously hurt, I'll cry.

Like last Friday, I was really fed up with some people during training. How some people wouldn't listen to instructions after being repeatedly told to them. 10++ TIMES! I was at my ends' wits. Muahaha GC ((lame inside joke)). No my wits' ends. Then I was furious with how we as a team acted towards our coach. THen we had to play that snatching game. What a good value it teaches huh, SNATCHING. Explain how that relates to our sport. I got rope burn from one of the bibs. Someone got stepped on. But my team won. But that's besides the point. And then I had to be reminded of how bad I am at attacking. Can I just say I'm a natural defender? I got so stressed when no one passed to me during my playing as WD. And then all these emotions....Wei Shan noticed and asked me. But even I did not know who I was angry at, what I was angry for. My teammates? the coach? me? Pooh. And then the most GLAM thing happened. I fell on my side. Tripped over Yi Ting's feet. That was pain. Then I couldn't TAHAN anymore. Everything flowed out. Obviously people thought I cried because of the pain. Then I told Coach Wei Li and she told the rest of my C'Prawnies thankfully.

You guys...great help, great friends...FOREVER. Thanks a lot!!!

a lyfe* like mine-; 9:37 pm