i know the world is not always what i want it to be.
if i can sacrifice my time for people why cant people sacrifice my time for me. these things always make me question why i'm so nice. why i always do stuff for people.
FirathulF knows how to look out for himself so that people won't do him in. even though his tactic is wrong, i do think it works. however, doing this won't agree to me. I'll feel so guilty the whole day. WHat if there is a potential situation where i will be misunderstood and i will be at a disadvantage. Does this warrant me a right to be ethically wrong just to survive? I guess if my character is like this maybe i can't survive in the world of business unless im the boss. Heck, i can't even survive my friends who are already like this. (hint: those frm the topmost sch). I always give in to my niceness. I never think of what the other person's motive will be. It ends up hurting me. It's just not me to think whatever that person does, there's a motive behind it. I don't question their actions. I just assume and accept that it is sincere. Silly silly me.
I really need to know what to do if I'm in this type of situation. Im tired of people taking adv of my feelings.
I should really write a book on this. So that people will know.
The story behind Singapore's future leaders.
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3:08 pm
I am proud to say, I've taken the pledge! I am now part of the revolution that will hopefully really shake the shoulders of people who's been saying that globalwarming is a good thing because it will expose more unchartered lands, or even that scientists and researchers have been lying about globalwarming! Tsk tsk.
And I like to add because I just realised I'm a big showoff that I have ALWAYS switched off all lights, fans and computers of mine after using them because leaving them on just makes me guilty! Even that tiny tiny lightbulb on the computer is using up electricity and carbon! I have been part of a carpool (with my brother and cousins) since beginning of last year.
Oooh and guess what my carbon imprint is!
YOUR ECP SCORE IS: 236 YOUR CARBON OUTPUT IS: 5.6 TONS PER YEARHowever I have no idea what ECP stands for. Still, my household is below national average which is 325 in the USA and 305 in Canada. Hooray!
I absolutely looooved the films on show. I really love the one called Mermaid and Unravel.
I'm relating to you this message as part of my commitment to take action on the climate crisis. As part of the Live Earth concerts, people are spreading the word about ways to be part of the worldwide effort.
Please go to
www.liveearth.org and take action yourself. You can see all 8 Live Earth concerts live and on demand at
www.liveearth.msn.com - and you can take action there, too!
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4:37 pm
THURSDAY:I have forgotten how to skate. I have forgotten how scary it is to skate. Sheesh. Now we have it for PE. Learning to skate with the class. Learning how to fall. Making a fool out of myself. 4 pro male instructors. Some say they're cute, some say they're not. Wtv man, it's ur own opinion. Anyway, i think the muscle cramps that i got today was from all the tension and nervousness that i was holding in.
I was standing in the V formation and the instructor was going on and on and on. I don't know if it was nerves or excitement, my legs started trembling. I thought I was whispering to Joanna for the instructor to please hurry up but he heard me. No surprise since my voice is usually LOUD. Plus he was standing in front of me because I was at the centre. So he told me to relax but I couldn't. I was too scared of falling and breaking my nose or jaws. In the end when we were given the space to skate around I could do it but my confidence stopped me from going too fast. AAAAH. I feel like I'm on the roller coaster when I'm on the skates. SHEESH! I must master this sport. I must learn to balance on this shoes on wheels!
Then we had jogging and Fatmah decided to overtake a class again. My stamina really PANCIT already.
FRIDAY:Social Studies questions are the most difficult for me to answer. They require a lot a lot a lot of thinking!!!!
I am getting louder everyday.
1st occurence: We had a Chemistry test one day last week on Organic Chem. Everyone studied. When she came up she said "Sorry ah for all the combined science students. You all must sit at the back again. I am going to teach electrolysis today and it's not in your syllabus" (Btw, I dropped. Heh. It's not that relevant for what I want to pursue and my maths is weak so just focus on the imp ones lah ha? Now I have 7 subjects.) So I just burst out "Ha? Got no test isit?" I din't think it was that loud; it was an accidental outburst! Naturally, all my classmates turned to me and said "SHH!" but it was too late because a) my LOUD voice b)Ms Chng was just in front of me. "I haven't forgotten ah! I brought it here with me," says Ms Chng and she goes to the teacher's table and extracts the test papers, all grins. And everyone sends me death stares.
2nd occurence: After that PE lesson where we skated and all of us were in class, I spotted Tsu Wei spraying deodarant (the common Impulse brand) in her shoe. Again my outburst was supposedly booming "Tsu Wei! What are you doing!" And everyone could hear because Mrs Peh was there so everyone was quiet.
3rd occurence: ok maybe this has nothing to do with my vice but it is funny still. It was during A maths lesson. She asked us to look at her and stop writing and pay attention. I was one of the few who did and when she answered a question, i was the few and perhaps the only one who did cos the others were busy solving answers in the worksheet. It was after recess and I felt like burping so i patted my chest gently. Mdm Lum wanted her students to answer her qns so as I was the only few and sitting at the front, she looked at me and saw my action. "Why? You scared is it?". I started to laugh because it was so absurd! And everyone looked at me. I shook my head because when I start laughing, I can't talk, as many would know. "No ah? Your chest pain is it? Your chest pain must go see doctor you know. Some of my friends like that. They never see doctor then in the end must go for bypass". At this point I BURST out laughing with my classmates. The possibilities of me getting a bypass is like 0! GOSH! So I had to force myself to stop talking because she was waiting for an answer. "No! I wanted to burp only!" And the class laughed at me! "Ohh...you are like a baby ah! Must burp after eating. You know how babies burp? Like this (Shows us)" Hahaha. Astaga...
And I am getting lamer too Mrs Loy: Why the group at the back so noisy?
Me: We are not talking! We're disgusting! Ooops I mean discussing!
Throughout the whole SS I was doing that but I really think I lose control over my voice when I get excited. Lack Lo always looks at me and gives me the "No Hope lah this one" face.
Vicky: Shahini, teach me how to braid my hair ok!
Safiah: Huh? Why you ask Shahini how to bake bread?
*Shahini stares at me like I'm a crazy and Vicky is very amused with me"
@Chem remedial today:
LINA K!!!!
Me: What's that?
Kai Qi: Li- Lithium, NA- Sodium ,K- Potassium
Me: Now I'll never forget the first group elements!
I don't know it just seemed funny at that time when we were all laughing about previous jokes. But weird Shahini din't find it so. SHe is abnormal. And Dhivyaal's cousins found her pretty!! Ha-ha Shahini. Really, we're not the only ones so stop critisizing your face ok! Even with you sweating around playing blow wind blow people can appreciate your sweaty face! haha.
now, also during SS I had a feeling put it me. I suddenly felt very dissapointed because I had a sudden daydream/vision of me getting prelim score of 20. I was opening my report book and I saw the number. The feeling was so real. And I thought "NO WAY! I'm not going to let myself get that! I am working hard! I won't get that kind of results" I really only have 7 weeks left. So..."SAFIAH ALL THE WAY!!"
Oh and Mrs Choo asked me to present my feedback on the i-portal in front of visiting principals. I have to tell them why I liked Cha-Cha! Haha! WHat's not to like?
ouch my muscles!Labels: school happenings
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8:32 pm
