Songs of the moment:
Guardian Angel- Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
Angel- Overgate
Teardrops On My Guitar- Taylor Swift
七月二十 (20th July) - Daryl Tan
[when i'm emo, this makes me more emo]Low- T Pain & Flo Rida
It's late. I should be sleeping. I just withdrew from volunteering with CHINGAY 08.
For the very first times in my life, I keep looking forward to school. Everyday I wake up, I think of one thing. I don't know if it is because of these things that I go to school. It may be due to the fact that everyday I do not go is one day less to seeing my friends who I'll be leaving. I remembered this one morning I woke up so tired but because of these thoughts I wanted to go to school so badly. I hope I will continue to find this spark no matter where I go next.
It's late I should be sleeping, I was sick today and I still have not recovered from PE but I need to write. I need to get it all out.
I feel sad and hopeless too.
I'm doubting myself.
Who knows what the future may hold?
I don't like how you make your life sound so tragic. Still, it makes you sound like a mysterious romantic and I'm fascinated. You're a geek but you're still the coolest amongst the people I know who think they're COOL> > > hehxx. You're failing but in one aspect you're succeeding. You're like a storybook character come alive. Are you for real? You don't conform to any stereotypes. Is that why I feel so scared yet still comfortable around you? I'm moving too fast am I? I need to step back. I can't think of the consequences though. Life's too short. I need to ask. I always ask, I realised. HAHA. EG: what's wrong with you? are you ok? even if i get an answer i don't like at least I GET IT. .......i'm going off topic...what's the topic? HAHA.
If you don't understand what "dilemma" is, how are you supposed to understand all of the above? What about "cliffhanger"? Do you know what that is?you know what? one of the reasons I can't stay in TPJC is the same reason why I want to stay in TPJC. if i drew a venn diagram of all the people who makes me want to stay and also who makes me want to leave, i think there'll be only very few people at the intersection.
why i want to stay in TPJC:the people
guitar (gold w/ honours)
FOOD
very near
KI teachers are very nice....summore going EUROPE/US/ GREECE.haizz...
Shooting Champions!
why i don't want to stay in TPJC:the people
i must be pushed to study. i can suffer in UNI later.
Went to National Museum with KI/TSD students. Mistook a 2nd yr TSD teacher for a tour guide..and called her "KAK". GOSH ....lucky me not in TSD/// hahahaha..embarassing.
i won't say much....it's all covered in Maisarah's blog. we went to see Greek sculptures and all that. I love Greek stories. All their gods and godesses stories...i think now, no one really worships them right? So don't mind me saying that...Zeus disgusts me. HAHA. A lot of modern literature are based on Greek stories...so nevermind about their behaviour..they make really interesting stories.
MESSAGE TO ONE WINGED ANGEL ZEKE: Please inform me whenever you are about to perform. I'll tell the rest. Or you can tell them too. And we will hopefully be able to come and watch you perform ..ALL RIGHT? I love watching you on the guitar and singing. Not many have the guts.
ok. Also, I went swimming with Shahini and Geraldine. Shahini didn't swim. She was busy being our surrogate mother, watching after our bags like all the women at the complex who were not swimming. HAHA! I met Uncle Syed, my old swimming instructor. He stills remembers me and my cousins. I used to call him Uncle SHAKE!!! haaha. He gave GC free swimming lesson. He corrected my swimming style. SORRY...have not swum properly since p6! Was told I was rushing too much....must relax. The he gave me his business card so that he can contact me when he's organising some outdoor adventure event. Especially since now GC is interested also. Those were the days.......hahahahha. Pulau Tioman, Pulau Ubin, Rock-climbing, biking @ bukit timah. NICE NICE NICE memories. I almost forgot about all these....
During one of the most toughest KI sessions, Ms Quek says memories are printed on each and every cell on your body. A girl had an organ transplant from another girl who died of murder. The case was unsolved. No one knew who the murderer was. After the successful transplant, the living girl started having nightmares. A psychiatrist/counsellor was roped in. After analysis, they found that this were memories, not nightmares. As a result, the murderer got caught. An old woman who got an organ transplant from a fromer pro karate suddenly had the physique to jump around and do karate. Weird but true...really. I wonder what would happen if I donate my organs when I die, what special abilities would that person get? what memories would that person receive? It's a bit like "The Eye" movie.
There's so many things I would like to say....but how do I say it?
I'm tired....tired of worrying...tired of caring...tired of making sure...
whatever happens, happens.
when i see your smile
tears run down my face I can't replace
and now that I'm stronger I've figured out
How this world turns cold and breaks through my soul
And I Know I'll find deep inside me I can be the one.- Your Guardian Angel by THE RED JUMPSUIT APPARATUS.
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