N U R S A F I A H

Tuesday, June 24, 2008/

break from Econs study @ 10:34 pm

Do I stress you out?
My sweater is on backwards and inside out
And you say how appropriate.
I don´t want to dissect everything today.
I don´t mean to pick you apart you see,
But I can´t help it.

There I go jumping before the gunshot has gone off.
Slap me with a splintered ruler,
And it would knock me to the floor if I wasn´t there already.
If only I could hunt the hunter.
And I really want is some patience.
A way to calm the angry voice.
And all I really want is deliverance.

Do I wear you out?
You must wonder why I´m relentless and all strung out.
I´m consumed by the chill of solitary.
I´m like Estella.
I like to reel it in and then spit it out.
I´m frustrated by your apathy.
And I am frightened by the corrupted ways of this land.
If only I could meet the Maker.
And I am fascinated by the spiritual man,
I am humbled by his humble nature.

What I wouldn´t give to find a soulmate,
Someone else to catch this drift.
And what I wouldn´t give to meet a kindred.
Enough about me, let´s talk about you for a minute.
Enough about you, let´s talk about life for a while.
The conflicts, the craziness and the sound of pretenses
Falling all around . . . all around.

Why are you so petrified of silence?
Here can you handle this?
Did you think about your bills, your ex, your deadlines?
Or when you think you´re gonna die?
Or did you long for the next distraction?
And all I need now is intellectual intercourse,
A soul to dig the hole much deeper.
And I have no concept of time other than it is flying.
If only I could kill the killer.

All I really want is some peace man.
A place to find a common ground.
And all I really want is a wavelength.
All I really want is some comfort.
A way to get my hands untied.
And all I really want is some justice . . .

- All I Really Want, Alanis Morissett

i love filzah's blog
i love reading TIME magazine
i wanna buy Econs and Geog books soon. HAIZ.

Shahini's classmate is Siti's friend! Siti is my classmate! Small world...
Shila's ex, Naim, is Shahini's course/class mate!

oh and suddenly I feel a bit like a failure.... I think I already lost. HAAH. ok nevermind, Safiah, it's okay to feel like a failure once in a while...realise how other people are better than you. Be humble. And I suddenly feel like I should have been in some people's lives...cos I made some wrong decisions...haiz.. opportunity cost again isit. But still I can't be in more places than once so that's ohkay...

OK back to Econs....

a lyfe* like mine-; 10:34 pm