N U R S A F I A H

Tuesday, April 08, 2008/

chocolate and fluctuations @ 9:13 pm

HEY HO. today started of really bad. i think my nerves got really frazzled. i think the colour of my aura normally is...purple, green, lavender. But after this, I think there were like electric bolts of yellow all over and the after effects lasted till today.

Thanks Siti for the hug and being so understanding and caring. Appreciate it!
Thanks canteen for selling that cheap but DELICIOUSLY choclatey swiss roll. Chocolate will make anything go away. I bet many people will agree.

So far I'm on top of everything and loving everything.

Especially maths and geog and lit! WOOTS. Just do not like Econs. I think, now I realise what Daryl and Sean mean. I'm just waiting for the time where I can be like Jasmine and LIKE econs. I like it but I don't GET IT. I hate the method of teaching. Haiz....

can u believe i CHEER for maths everytime lessons start. Me and Nadirah will go oh so crazy and noisy.

And spotting for Nadirah's Unta in this dessert is so easy. HHAHA...

Had a long day. Lit and Econs Cambridge Summer School interview. I think I really flunked the Econs one. I really x 10^10 hope that I get the Lit one. PLS PLS PLS...

Emotionally, I think I've adjusted. But I still miss the friendly faces of random people like Trudy and Marie for example. And Yong Liang. haha...random people from my OG.

I went back to TPJ on Fri in my MJ uniform. HAhha....Hmm. yes no comments. But I felt at peace. REally. Mwaahah.

And I'm really glad that everything's ok now. That what was so mixed up and crazy before has fallen into place and I am less worried and confused. Everything happens for a reason, this is something I so strongly hold on to.

I'll give my 100% shot for everyone I love including myself, in this 2 short years. Yes even for Econs.

Still, sometimes it's just not enough and I keep wanting more out of something I know is not capable of giving me enough. Sometimes I just want something that is very familiar to me. The school is still an unfamiliar place to me. I don't know if it's the fact that it's too big or too small. Maybe both maybe neither. I just know what I want but I don't know how to get it sometimes. Sometimes I just want to take things apart and make it into my perfect little world. Yeah but it's all just mirrors around me. Reflecting what I give to the world. Sometimes, it's not even mirrors. What I give is not even what I get. Sometimes I think why do I care so much, when it's all not worth it in the end. And then when I think about it again, I always do what makes me happy. But it was only momentarily. In the long term, I keep feeling down again and feel like a POS and asking me why in the world am I doing this when it's going nowhere and I'm going round and round in circles.

I'm glad I make people feel better. It makes me smile too that I make them feel better. Heh..but sometimes, people just do not know how to make ME feel better. Maybe they just don't know how to. Maybe I don't know enough people who makes me feel better. Maybe I do know but I never see them when I need them, cos JC is a freaking big place where handphones are a necessity and bills go up cos of this. So for those who have made me feel better at one point of time or another, a BIG thank you...You people ROCK. Would you know who you are? :) Please....

OOH Daryl got in SONGFEST 08 at TPJC! YAY! And Tara and Visa too! Wonder if Syazwan got in....

Anyhoos Sean's buying me tickets..YAY!!

PUBLICITY: SONGFEST 08 @ TPJC. 7pm. Tickets: $5.

OOH K PICTURES! haha...

SHILA and ME.

Mouse and RAT! Vote for #26! ATIQAH!!

Atiqah's fanclub! see the badges?? NICE RIGHT...woots! Hoon and Me!

MOUSE!

YJ SO CUTE!

Met Erma so she can give me her suepr dee duper late Vday present cum Bday present. She showed me her AMAZING new newsletter which we all helped with along the way. SO PROUD OF YOU ERMS! At Starbucks CP. Bryan and Pam came too. AND PAM FORGOT TO BRING MY MARKERS! So must meet her at TPJ one day to get it. Which is not so inconvenient for me...

Bryan se-leng moment.

Have you seen the latest way of taking photos? mwhahhags.

AND AGAIN!

PAMELA

Bryan TRYING to copy Pamela. HAHA....HIM-BO! Actually he was listening to a gross story by Erma. ok..EEWWW..

We saw Shahrena that day. It seems most of the times I'm out, I'll see Shahrena. HAha so funny...I LOVE Straits Times when it's not about work!

ok u can't see it. But that's supposed to be a yellow bird. Which I do not know the name of. Yeah.
On the way somewhere and this was in the park in front of my home.

I am turning to be a real nature-loving sharp-eyed person. WOO HOO. can u see the butterfly? So prettaye...THIS IS WHY I LOVE WALKING HOME FROM TPJ! I can choose to stop one stop further so that it is a shorter walk but I like walking home from the TPJ stop so I can see all this nature stuff. HAiz...and the long walk with the trees just make me calm and makes me reflect on my day.

XOXO
N U R S A F I A H
yay to everyone!

Labels: MJC, outburst, pictures

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