N U R S A F I A H

Sunday, December 07, 2008/

Only One knows best @ 8:58 pm

"Do you know what is better than charity and fasting and prayer? It is keeping peace and good relations between people, as quarrels and bad feelings destroy mankind."
(Hadith; Muslims & Bukhari)

"You will not enter paradise until you have faith; and you will not complete your faith till you love one another."
(Hadith; Muslim)

For some reasons, I just can't do certain things. I think it's because, I see my flaws beside you. Increasingly, I realise how much how much my faith is weak. And people think I'm strong because I wear the tudung. I'm sooo not that state yet. I'm still so weak, so weak...

Maybe then, I should improve myself first, think of myself first before I can even think of anyone else.

It's so hard sometimes because there's distractions everyday. Sometimes I just want to go to some very very quiet place and be alone and think and gain more knowledge because I feel so weak and so inadequate with what I have, and have no other responsibilities but just wanting to know and wanting to learn even more. Like haha... I wish there was a cave in Tampines huh? Maybe my room would do. Maybe I could buy a "DO NOT DISTURB" sign with an indication of how many hours I would want to be alone.

Thank you for being the hard knock on my head.

Mum says, "If humans can't teach us, Allah will."

Humans have taught me a lot.

My baby brother taught me the importance of doing chores, the importance of waking up early in the morning to do chores before I leave the house. He didn't really preach it to me of course, he's just 1 year plus... but he made me realise. And I think, that's the most effective way to learn. When you realise it yourself.

My mum made me realise how I prefer things to be planned, how I prefer to know what will go on in my week, my days. She made me realise how I'd rather not follow my emotions but sit down and think it throught, but I know myself that emotions are something that just happens. So, I learnt how to let the emotion wash over me before thinking, and then, taking actions after my thoughts.

My younger brother made me realised how to manage my time, and how to be wise and think on the guy side of stuff. He's growing too...

My father made me realise how I need certain things in my life...how I need certain things to be...

What else do I need to know? What else have humans not taught me...? For now, it's all too overwhelming, what I need to do with myself. How much more I need to learn...

Learning.. learning.. I guess I should read the Doctor Faustus play by Christopher Marlowe... because humans wrote some great Literature and I always learn a lot from them too...that's why I love Lit...I always learn more about myself, about the people around me, about how and why they act the way they are sometimes...

and Love, I learn it everyday...what it should be, what it is...

How much more we need to learn...
How much more we need to know...
And yet, all that we can ever know is just a fraction of all the knowledge that exists in the whole universe...

XOXO
N U R S A F I A H
I've got a looooong way to go

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