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Wednesday, April 30, 2008/
What I can ne’er express, yet cannot all conceal. @ 10:37 pm
From Childe Harold's Pilgrimage Canto IV, Verse 178
CLXXVIII.
There is a pleasure in the pathless woods, There is a rapture on the lonely shore, There is society where none intrudes, By the deep Sea, and music in its roar: I love not Man the less, but Nature more, From these our interviews, in which I steal From all I may be, or have been before, To mingle with the Universe, and feel What I can ne’er express, yet cannot all conceal.
- George Gordon, Lord Byron
Into The Hour
I have come into the hour of a white healing. Grief's surgery is over and I wear The scar of my remorse and of my feeling.
I have come into a sudden sunlit hour When ghosts are scared to comers. I have come Into the time when grief begins to flower
Into a new love. It had filled my room Long before I recognised it. Now I speak its name. Grief finds its good way home.
The apple-blossom's handsome on the bough And Paradise spreads round. I touch its grass. I want to celebrate but don't know how.
I need not speak though everyone I pass Stares at me kindly. I would put my hand Into their hands. Now I have lost my loss
In some way I may later understand. I hear the singing of the summer grass. And love, I find, has no considered end,
Nor is it subject to the wilderness Which follows death. I am not traitor to A person or a memory. I trace
Behind that love another which is running Around, ahead. I need not ask its meaning.
- Elizabeth Jennings
I've just highlighted the parts which I really like. :)
announcement to Cedar Netballers, heck, to the WHOLE WORLD PLS @ 11:38 pm
one word. shocking.
plus one more. proud.
ok another one more....BEAMS
5 OF OUR CEDAR CDIV JUNIORS ARE IN U14 SQUAD
ok jump jump jump!!!! HAHAHA WHEEEE!
i wanna go back visit them!!! miss them miss them miss NETBALL!
*CG refers to Cedar Girls
National 14 & Under Squad 2008
Congratulations to the following players who have been selected into the 14 & Under National Squad for 2008:
Tan Ming Zhen- CG Lan Jing Han- RGS Rebekah Yeo- RGS Eng Chiao Ye Joanne- SJC Chen Yutong Olivia - SSP Farah Shakina Bte Hussein A - SSP Nur Athirah Bte Zulkiflie - SSP Tan Jenelle Elise - SSP Zahirah Bte Sudiyono -SSP Ainsley Chew Shiming - CG PARK Ji Won - CG Beverly Yeo Yeng Leng -SSP Tan Mei See - NHH Sng Ying - SNG Samantha Tan Si Tong - CG Kwee Yi Ning - CG Foo Yi Hui - RGS Evangeline Koh - RGS Young Xin Trina - SMS Samantha Aswini Singham - SMS Amanina Bte Affan - SSP Wong Yuan Min - SSP Lim Wei Yan Kimberly - SSP Koh Sze Lin - SMS Kimberly - CHIJ(TP) Jeanne Ng - MGS Sheena Suthen - Anderson
gosh it's like some popularity contest. there's one for JC A-div footballers and all the typical footballers name are up there. =.= And there's one for B div netballers! ok frm Cedar Girls are...
Cherrie Choo (C , Cedar Girls’) (3%, 31 Votes) Ainsley Chew (GK, Cedar Girls’) (3%, 29 Votes) Parveen Nair (GD, Cedar Girls’) (3%, 28 Votes) PARVEEN!!! haahah not bad sia! Xin Yi (GA, Cedar Girls’) (2%, 23 Votes) XIN YI YO! Ann Koh (WA, Cedar Girls’) (2%, 22 Votes) Samantha Tan Si Tong (GS/GA, Cedar Girls’) (2%, 19 Votes)
And just found out that SgSports sch clinched B div netball champion for the first time...hahah...ok lah. At least the government's main aim of building the sch in the first place are finally seeing light.
CEDAR B DIV GOT 4th NATIONAL!!!!
haha..i see familiar people!
XIN YI SHOOTS
ANOOJA DEFENDS!
PARVEEN INTERCEPTS!
CHERIE JUMPS!
SHAKILA CATCHES!
they block!
Ok juniors, you all rock a lot. I love you people. Am so sorry veryy verry sorry that I couldn't come down for even ONE match. Haiz, I missed your legacy. Thank you so much for bringing Cedar's name to the top, for bringing Netball to the top. I still remembered when people laughed at Netball during principal's speech where she was giving each CCA aims to be reached. When we felt so malu and angry. Most CCA reached nationals but we only managed zonals. I know I didn't contribute a lot but I did my best. And I don't know if it's my right to share this joy. But I am so very very happy. Must be so proud playing in Toa Payoh Sports Hall where the national players play for Singapore. Maybe one day, you'll play for Singapore too. ALL THE BEST!!! and the jersey so SEXAYYYE. HAHA
i shall wake up at 6.45am tomorrow. I shall leave the house at 7.45am. I hope I'll not be tired anymore. Tomorrow NAPHA 5 items!
and, print: 1. the documents that Ms Lim wants 2. PI
YAY! PI is all over already! WAHOOO...
i'm feeling so tired. sleeping at 1.30am+2.4km= bodyache = no energy to be yourself
I was feeling so horrible today. I don't know if it's all just in the mind. Only felt alive during Maths. Can you believe this?! Haiz...I am only confident of passing Maths well at this point of time. Really can't wait for holidays.
I've withdrawn from the AY Comm. I can't commit myself 100%. I can't do my job there properly.
I have so much to say but won't say it due to the risk of offending people. I guess the people who needs to know would know. I have to let the steam out one way or another.
When I wanna know someone, I'll just know them. They'll be my friend in a week. When I don't care, I just ignore them. Insignificant in my life, yes, but I have no energy to spare my thoughts for them. This is why I don't waste my breath, I don't waste my thoughts. My thoughts should be concentrated on things that matter in my life like U(you and me)S. There are too many people. And too little time. So yes, I only care for those who mean something to me. I'd like to go around smiling and saying HI to everyone in school but howells, it's impossible and unrealistic. Safiah is not a public good (economic term here).
Gosh that's so juvenile and egocentric . Haha. But it is true for me. I think.
Maybe I should wait till everyday is CCA practice for SYF. Oh gosh. Then the guitar gang shall crapazoid a lot.
Dian said she'll call back. WHERE ARE YOU NOW? hrmmph. I kinda miss having SOMETHING to talk about with her.
I think Madam H is a good econs lecturer. Missed her. At least now I understand better during lectures.
Academic progression:
First lit test- 10.5/25 :( i had no time to finish. GOSH. I thought I'd get 9. Ok lah, consultation with Miss L on Friday.
First Geog test 6/16 :( i really dunno what the structure is like, how I'm supposed to answer. Even though the content was there
First Econs test 4/25 :( don't say anything...haiz..nv study!
First math test 16/25 HAHHA! ok at least i passed one.
hahah.... sean said "I don't get why the word eyecandy exists" totally. sums up. my day.
Atiqah din't get exco. :( I signed up for Guitar Exco. Tomorrow, we're supposed to teach games to our guitar mates. HAHA!
Thanks for the PHOTOS christina.
top row; from left: jocelyn, wan ting, me, daryl, ding jie bottom row; christina and pei rong
with JASMINE!!!
xoxo N U R S A F I A H it's nice to be thought of it's even nicer to be taken seriously
THE MUMSIES: elsie chng and shahrena. Elsie has left SPH!!!! :( owwwhh....owhh...heart pain heart pain!!! sobs sobs
i'll rmb these times...hahaa.....ooh la la....best overseas trip! but it was soo short. but the mix of personalities....we were so different but somehow...we got along well together and all...i miss IT... oh HAHA...mervyn looks like the DAD. and Pam looks like the MUM. and we are all one big happy family....
and because IN CROWD 07-08 has it's own theme song made especially for us....
OH GOSH IN CROWD!!!!! love the pplwho stayed through the course of it all. what happened to the rest? didn't even have a chance to know them....howells, their loss.
yeah and i was cleaning up my room...and saw the TPJ magazine...and one of the graduated seniors said "The depth of your friendships is not measured by the length of your acquaintance". If I look back. I think it's true. If I look now, I think it's true. Look how many friendships I've made just in the space of 2 plus months, and for some, 4 days? And look at how many I still hold on to. And look at those whom I've known for half my life and where are they now? I can't blame some because even in Singapore, distance plays a part. I guess, like in Om Shanti Om (which I watched ytday with the family and which ROCKS! hahaha..) "if you want something with all of your heart, the whole universe conspires so you can get it" ...in other words..FATE? DESTINY? CHANCE? OPPORTUNITY? coincidence not being coincidences at all? Hmmm....
XOXO N U R S A F I A H is brimming-ful of wholesome love
to say so much and still hide everything (this is why i love poetry) @ 9:12 pm
I Leave This at Your Ear (For Nessie Dunsmuir)
I leave this at your ear for when you wake, A creature in its abstract cage asleep. Your dreams blindfold you by the light they make.
The owl called from the naked-woman tree As I came down by the Kyle farm to hear Your house silent by the speaking sea.
I have come late but I have come before Later with slaked steps from stone to stone To hope to find you listening for the door.
I stand in the ticking room. My dear, I take A moth kiss from your breath. The shore gulls cry, I leave this at your ear for when you wake.
- W.S. Graham
somewhere i have never travelled
somewhere i have never travelled, gladly beyond any experience, your eyes have their silence: in your most frail gesture are things which enclose me, or which i cannot touch because they are too near
your slightest look easily will unclose me though i have closed myself as fingers, you open always petal by petal myself as Spring opens (touching skilfully, mysteriously) her first rose
or if your wish be to close me, i and my life will shut very beautifully, suddenly, as when the heart of this flower imagines the snow carefully everywhere descending;
nothing which we are to perceive in this world equals the power of your intense fragility: whose texture compels me with the colour of its countries, rendering death and forever with each breathing
(i do not know what it is about you that closes and opens; only something in me understands the voice of your eyes is deeper than all roses) nobody, not even the rain, has such small hands
- e.e. cummings
1, 2, 3 see i'm blown away. see i'm forever changed.
ATIQAH GOT INTO COUNCIL!!!! AMALINA GOT INTO COUNCIL!!! MAISARAH GOT INTO COUNCIL!!!
I hope this is the best path for them. The best choice. Because it it's not, god won't let it happen. OK ATIQAH.
Also,
I hope I get to be what I deserve to be in Guitar Ex-co too.
On Thursday, as I was going home and crossing TPJ bridge, I saw Ms Fernandez. Or rather, she saw me. I smiled at her. She smiled at me. I was wearing my red specs, which Wee Shiun had trouble recognising me in at one point of time, and this Lit teacher said "Safiah! How are you? Are you having fun in MJ?" haha...I thought only students ask that to their friends...I didn't know that teachers take into account the fun factor too. Hmm...I was really shocked that a) she recognised me and b) she remembers my name! WOW! I think me always answering her questions and my participation in class must have left an impact on her...as self-appraising as that sounds. But now, reminiscing, Lit tutorials, and even lectures, were so much more fun back then. I think it's across the whole country. PAE was definitely fun-ner.
At night, h2 lit students went to Raffles Hotel Jubilee Hall to catch Hamlet. I went with Fazari, Nadirah and Shafiq. Met the other MJC-ians at the basement of Raffles Mall. We ate donuts..haha FUN! and soo...YUMMY! Anyhoos Hamlet is my first ever Shakespeare play. I didn't know what to expect really. But it was actually fun and interesting, despite it being very Shakespeare where plots and twists happen and some go mad and everyone dies. Kind of reminds me of Indonesian sinetrons like Hikmah. HAHA...Actually I think Hikmah is influenced by Shakespeare cos it's all VERY VERY DRAMA..but the actors were really good, especially Hamlet. He was very natural. He didn't make me think that he was acting. I think good actors...BE and not just ACT. I shall further elaborate on the similarities between Shakespeare and Hikmah. Both have cruel acts. Both are very drama. Shakespeare is VERY influential.
I wish Christina and Muhaina took h2 lit. Sheesh lah this JC doesn't allow them that combi. Oh and I spotted Krystal, Kikin and Jacqueline. Very unexpected...
And now, only 2 people are going for the cambridge programme for Lit. If everything goes well, I'll be going with Joan who has the same birthday as me. HOW COOL. I found out from Heidi that in CJ there are like 200 appicants or isit...20. But still, a whole lot more than MJ's 6. I feel kinda under-qualified for this programme. Like what if I don't represent MJ well enough and all the CJ ppl happen to be super damn powderful in drama and lit and they spurt out cheemanology..HEIDI...PLEASE PLEASE don't just be in reserve list. I wanna see you there so u can french braid my hair! hee..
Pictures...are with other people.
I felt so sick on Friday... I wanted to finish my work so I went to the library. Met Christina's class and went into the discussion/movie room with them. They put GREASE on, as in the movie ,while my nose was running and I was doing Maths. Ha-ha... GREASE LIGHNING!, Hopelessly Devoted To You...me and Christina should so do a musical. Heee...
* my baby brother is trying to climb on to me to reach the keyboard. He is extreeeemely fascinated with the keyboard. No? Maybe the fascination's with me. CUTE. Tho he is growing too fast for me to keep up...such is life in the present state...unable to keep up with anything ( news, hobby, family, my room, friends). The holidays are very much longed for...*
Then..after Functions Lecture, ate and drank hot teh-O. Then felt better. Then, I drank cold water from my water bottle and the sneezing explosion started again...sooo bought another cup of hot tea. Went to the study room and saw Siti who looked WORSE than me...and she had house comm interview in half an hour. She stubbornly refused to drink hot tea even though I offered to buy for her a cup.
I just tagged with Rika and Hirma. Met them in the library. Gave up doing PI cos of the drowsiness that consumes you when you're having runny nose. So I just sat with them and did Econs notes. Felt more productive like that.
I was all on time and everything but Joanna made me late for Guitar cos of miscommunication. AND the group I was walking with walked quite slow. You see, I am still enthusiastic for Guitar. Hee...
We were separated into groups and I was in Guitar 3. So our seating is temporarily permanent. Sheena, King, Wesley, JY, Vanessa and ooh..did I miss anyone. HAHA....these will be the faces I see around me every week. And again, many thought that I was a Chinese...hmm...no comments. HAHA.
Almost the whole j1 ensemble took the form for EXCO sign-up...Haiz.. while SOME people are stepping down and handing over, I'm just about to start... not even confirmed if I'll get it but I'll try my best cos I really want it...haha. Reminds me of Media Club Exco Elections last 2 years..
* i interrupt you to bring you this announcement: MY BROTHER HAS JUST LEARNT TO STAND ON HIS OWN!!!! ohhhh woweee!*
I think the two pieces that we played as an ensemble were not bad. The timings were still a bit...here and there...but overall YAY! we managed to produce beautiful music. It's really nice lah..guitar. HAHA! And then we watched the j2s play, a preview of their part for the TJ guitar concert, which I'm not going for. I can't wait to be in their position..HAHA...am i siao siao? (:..After that Darren asked if there were any feedback and I was saying something so Zhen Yan announced to the whole room "Saf has something to say" Haha...err..ok. I feel very amused when Zhen Yan calls me "Saf" haha.
I was complaining so much on how I was hungry... I really had pangs for Tuna Puff from TPJ Cafe. And one point of time I wanted to eat Old Chang Kee's curry chicken in that bun bowl. I was really really hungry...soo I sms-ed Sean. And he said he was still in school so I can come down and buy. BUT guitar practice ends at 6 plus so I told him what if Tuna Puff runs out, some more it's on a Friday. Then he said he'll buy it first. Hee...YAY! My craving was taken care of. I saw Felina while waiting at the side gate. Sean describes Felina as having the face of one who is electrocuted when she saw me. It's nice to shock people...hmm...he should see Zahida's face...all this drama and TSD people. HAHA. So Sean THANKS. Do I have to make it up to you...haha. It'll all be different when you go for NS next year...Hmm..hahha!
I still feel so young. Like not to the stage where I see friends going off for NS. Let's review this again next year.
XOXO N U R S A F I A H is very unsure and mixed up and melting
P.S. pray that I don't have to pay for upper jaw retainers which I mis-shaped with hot water.
bloody men are like bloody buses... who's got that poem? ok this is RANDOM.
ahhahaahaha
i so completely agree with that poem... go find it on your own.
i am so lazy to find it.
wait. I AM A NICE GIRL. soooo....
Bloody men ! Wendy Cope, 1945-
Bloody men are like bloody buses You wait for about a year And as soon as one approaches your stop Two or three others appear.
You look at them flashing their indicators, Offering you a ride. You're trying to read the destinations, You haven't much time to decide.
If you make a mistake, there is no turning back. Jump off, and you'll stand there and gaze While the cars and the taxis and lorries go by And the minutes, the hours, the days.
hahha...it is very nice talking to the people who are very nice to talk to. GEDDIT? i shan't elaborate. I think I am on a high. I may very well be on a high. A high to Tampines, Pasir Ris, Bedok Reservoir.
Ok that part will be foreign to you if you're not studying Sylvia Plath. Which most of you aren't. SO! I just did a parody...
ahaiz...tmr during the long break and lunch...i shall gobbledygoo up my food and add the finishing touches to my Lit Essay Assignment 1. No maybe I'll that AFTER school since deadline is at 5pm. OK. Then I'll print all the Sylvia Plath poems which are not in my collection currently (GRR can't wait to get the book) cos I can't print it at home. AND MAYBE...I'll have time to study Human Geog on the bus and during 1h 40 mins break....PLEASE LET ME PASSSS!!!!
Thanks for your concern. I keep breaking promises. Almost an hour late. SHALL SLEEP NOW. I know you're purposely bullying me! HEH...
Please keep me smiling before I go to sleep everyday. THANK YOU. I don't ask for much. ( :
YOUR WELCOME WEI SHAN. Haiz...don't be like that anymore in school ok. Less than 2 years goes by very fast and you can do whatever you want. Just purge away that record and be hidden from your teachers' eyes...unless what you do is super ta-da outstanding. I'll see you for Netball Carnival. CANNOT WAIT!!! hee...
p.s. the tagboard is screwed. cannot write more than 25 characters??? arggs. and..it deleted the whole tags up till fatmah's in january...so like...2 months plus of tags! haiz...there goes Daryl's only tag. and Jonathan's only tag...haiz...and all my faved ppl..okok..STOP MOURNING SAFIAH..they're only tags! hahahas....still...AYO TECHNOLOGY!!!
xoxo N U R S A F I A H i'm happy for me you're happy for you i haven't found close friends this fast i haven't found close friends this true
Others see you as an exciting, highly volatile, rather impulsive personality; a natural lead, who's quick to make decisions, though not always the right ones. They see you as bold and adventuresome, someone who will try anything once; someone who takes chances and enjoys an adventure. They enjoy being in your company because of the excitement you radiate.
i got the LIT CAMBRIDGE SUMMER PROGRAMME!!!! which is still so bombastically EXPENSIVE,...opportunity fund, please qualify me!
woo hoo! woo hoo! woo hoo!
One of the highest in class for first h1 Maths test!!! first time in history...HEE
woo hoo! woo hoo! woo hoo!
but still could have scored better...so many careless mistakes... ok must sustain this...
what else..hmmm
MC for 2 days!!! haiz...let me do my own work in my own time....
Safiah, please complete all your work...and rest...because you need it...and your body aches..and you don't wanna catch this virus anymore...and try to finish reading all your library books...OK OK OK..
which means I will miss A LOT of lessons tomorrow which is LIT DAY...haiz....We shall see if there is a need for me to come on Wednesday, which is GEOG day because..there is a Human Geog test! So I SHOULD GO right...but I can't study that well cos I'm SICK...haiz...decision will be made when the time comes..
colloseum and SONGFEST! and the week in digital snapshots @ 8:37 pm
1. Monday- Jannah (MJ)'s bday...SEXY SEVENTEEN!
JANNAH SEXY SEVENTEEN!
1. Shafienas bought Jannah a cream roll from the Recharge stall From left; Fazari, Siti, Me and Shafienas. We all stare at Jannah eating the cake longingly...except Shafienas...since she is so happy that she bought Jannah a present..
2. We all TRY to get a bite. Fazari wants to snatch. Jannah says "OI!" Siti wants to hit Jannah with a ....shoebag?! Shafienas says....let's drink this drink instead!
3. At the end of the day, the nice one gets a feeding from the birthday girl while the naughty Fazari sulks at one corner...
Family photo! Missing in picture: Shafiq and Nadirah(photographer).
Fairies in the air... Fazari says "the grass is greener on the ground"
Safiah: FACE OFF AH... Fazari: Nak challenge ke pe...
BOO!
2. Election Day on Wednesday
council nominees; all the best to all deserving nominees
Voting through SMS. Extra lah Musfirah and Wirda! teehee...
But we got bored and our legs and backs so cramped from sitting on the floor...
3. Colloseum on Friday
Before that, I had one period of H1 maths. And am so happy that I got one of the highest in class. 16/25. I know I could have scored better. I mean I took A Math already right? SO...haiz.. ok ok. A lot of careless mistakes. And...now I must maintain this. But everyone should know that this is the FIRST time in history that Safiah scores one of the highest for Maths. I've always been failing Additional Maths during upper sec. Hee hee...Can't help but be happy and telling everyone! haha...
Got ready with Christina. We were so pissed at the fact that we were treated like prisoners. ARGGS. So she asked her dad to send her her stuff. So pissing offing. Haiz..Phobos plus Callisto!
Springing of Christina... ...SUCCESSFUL!
I dinnoe my hair grew THIS long...
YAY! Found a french-braider in school! THANKS RIKA!!! Muackz! Btw...i LOVE th triton cheerleadingdisplay..ROKCS..no wonder they won...and i love your shirts lahh...NICE okay.
Time to try french braiding Christina's hair. CHOPPED: Failure....
Shila is ATLAS' Cheerleader! SO CUTE!
08A301! Plus Musfirah sesat...Phobos and Atlas had to seat at the tentage...haiz.
TOTEM POLE!
Gladiators ball: There was supposed to be heats but it kept postponing due to the rain so J1 and J2 were combined. I was the only J1 in the Gladiator's Ball team cos Shafienas backed out. What a shock I got when I was introduced to the team by Zaki. Arghs. felt so alone being the only J1 but I just tried my best talking to the 3 other J2s. It's something like Captain's ball...and we played on the synthetic football field..I have never had so many people watching me play before, 2 WHOLE HOUSES...a bit...no VERY pressurising. Some more playing with all the basketballers and footballers in my house, they were very competitive...and I had no confidence that the boys would pass to me so I just did my very best defending...and I think it pressured the opponents. But I got tired out easily. Stamina is so low. I was so nervous I'd make a mistake..therefore I did make mistakes when catching the ball. I havn't played for so long so I'm really sorry. But still...I was scared of playing against Callisto cos the girls were all netballers. But we beat them in end. We won all the houses except Triton and I do not know what our end position was. 2nd isit?
I left at the prize-giving ceremony with permission from Zaki and Shafiqah to go to Songfest. Hoon, Christina and me plus Germaine cabbed there so we'd make it on time with good seats. We were trying to pass by that Mister. And we were so scared that we'll get caught or what because the whole school was still at the track for prize-giving. Christina a;ready asked her friend to save us seats. Husna and Haziq came later. Sakinah and Hani, Pamela, and Syazwan were waiting for me at the Audi benches for me to pass them their tickets. When I came, the first three were together and I realised they were classmates and they realised that they were all waiting for the same girl to give her tickets. SO FUNNY! And Syazwan, very baik, go and tell me that his friend had extra ticket so he didn't need my ticket. So I had one extra ticket in the end. Which was sad because I knew 2 peeps who wanted to go but had no tix.
3. Songfest at TPJC '08
I saw Jonathan at the bus stop in the morning and he asked me if I was going...OF COURSE LAH! haha...I totally forgot that he would, of course, be competing...in the FINALS.
Man Khai, u don't know what u missed. HAHA... It so totally rocked and the SC who organised it managed everything very well. THANK YOU SEAN for all the tickets...12 in total. HAHAH.
I still like 'The One I Love' more than the song that Daryl sang that night. But it was cool. Hahah..I think I lost 1/4 of my voice from screaming.
I was supporting: Daryl, Visa, Tara, Aliya, Jonathan
Sean's video was nice! The songfest posters were nice! Good job lah to all the peeps! Everyone dressed really fantabulously!
Daryl got First Runner UP!!!! And a lot of vouchers! Shopping mall vouchers and HMV vouchers...HRMPH...
Ding Jie, me and Christina gave Daryl a bunch of flowers...that does not qualify for a bouquet. Hahah! Met Mr Adrian Tan again!!! HE ROCKS ROCKS ROCKS! hahha...
and Atiqah Lokman, Sarah, Ali, Banu, Nadiah, Amirah, Siti Safiyah, Hisyam...the whole PAE class of 08S27...and also...Shermaine, Cheryl (PE CLASS), HAMAIZAH!!! again... aka Hammy. I still feel so happy when I see her. Haiz...Amira Razali, JOCELYN!, Kailin (so sorry I brushed you aside, I was looking for my handphone)
Me; Christina; Pei Rong!
Me; Christina; Jasmine! Jonathan and me! HAHAH Jonathan Bao Bao! Our guitar Shifu.
Syahidah; Jackson; Boo; ME!; Christina.
Daryl; Pei Rong ( am i allowed to upload this photo? hee...)
Then, Daryl,Pei Rong, Boo, Jackson, Ding Jie, me and Christina went to CC Macs to fill our rumbling tummies. We met Syahidah outside and she wanted to join us. I think half of the people at the extension room at Macs were people from TPJC and some I know by face, some I know personally...haha...this is the 2nd time I lepak there. HEE HEE...so nice lah..
I took many many more photos but they're all with Syahidah, Hamaizah, Ding Jie (ok he just gave me his share), Christina..and one is with Atiqah. HAHA... LOVE THE DAY and NIGHT...
so VIDEOS now lah okk...even though it takes a looong time to upload
DARYL ( 1st runner up- SOLO) :
haha..the microphone kept hitting him. AND guess who were the ones saying " I LOVE YOU!"- Jasmine and Jocelyn! hahaha...cute twins la they. I really like the strumming!
READY. SET. ZAP ( 1st runner up- GROUP)
HAHA...when the curtain opened i was already impressed. Because it was different..and there were fairy lights strung..HAHA NICE. hahah...then I saw it was Jonathan singing...EVEN MORE impressed. haha aiyahh... Jonathan...everything you can do...guitar.drums. SING...
The co-ordination was fantastic and the feeling was natural...haha
ok I am no judge...so just ENJOY...
I'll upload the rest later because JON JON is waiting to see himself. HAHAHA....
XOXO N U R S A F I A H wants to hold on to this moment
and risk fainting and just dropping dead. cos the body's so tired but the mind is not.
Last Thursday night, MOVIE MARATHON ROCKS. watching it with christina and hoon rocks. Warlords was touching. It is NICE ok Daryl. Haiz....then, I cried after Secrets...cried like siao...and am now learning how to play some songs on guitar. Jay Chou rocks. Now I understand Malita and Sarah Chua's obsession with him. Miss you guys by the way. I cried for 200 pound beauty too. Now don't need to wait for KQ's bro to find his missing copy. YAY! Slept for Kungfu Dunk and CG 7. Me and Hoon went out to eat warm food then solat Subuh with the peeps with Firdaus as imam. I like praying together...us friends..so nice. Haha... Then SMS-ed all my TPJC peeps, all the best for PW. And .....Sean got A! Daryl got B! And...haiz the rest, I should not say..okok..COngrats to those who are happy with PW...to those who are not, fight back with A level results. Jia you! Sms-ed till dawn came, slept at the same table with Christina and Hoon cos it's so cold in the hall...then went home. So tired.
Then at 10 am, woke up again...to go to Siglap Sec for CIP meeting...organising some Environment Day at Pasir Ris Park with all the hotshots in the world. HAha ..no just the partnership stuffs...am a bit scared but nvm, new experiences!
Then slept again...when I came home...
SO TODAY...after being so tired and sms-ing Sean whenever I feel SIAN...went White Sands to run some errands. Then decided to meet him at TPJ to pay for Songfest tix. And who did I see on the bus? CHRISTINA!!! So yea, we went TPJ together and WHO DID WE SEE AT TPJ BUS STOP? DARYL and...EHEHMM hahahhha! What a beautiful coincidence...talked to him aannd....EHEM..and yeah! made a new friend! (i hope) Then called Sean and said I was at side gate already. Hahha..then talked to Daryl some more...and realised I was keeping Sean waiting. THen I saw him at the other side of the bridge and hahah...he looked so BLACK...like angry black. hahaah..cute. Christina was running...i didn't know why so I ran with her. THen we decided to go in. And Sean had council meeting so couldn't talk to him much but we saw JASMINE and HAMAIZAH and finally I met Jasmine's Daryl. HAHA...and i think I met a few ex-gongshangers in TPJ..but I was too shy to call their names.
Then on the way home, feeling so high and realising that at least today wasn't so bad...I met Syairah at the bubble tea area and she was with her friend, Amirah Maisarah and they wanted to walk to the interchange so they walked me home since it's on the way. This is what I love, spontaneous conversation. It's just so easy to pick up where we left off. hahaah...Syairah say, I know so many people at TPJ that if I stand on the stage to run for council, i don't need to say anything...they'll just vote for me..HAHAH amusing thought..
And I met all the DIKIR KAKAKS..and they expressed their dissapointment and sorrow that I didn't stay. They said they were looking forward to seeing me...haiz..I should be over this phase..I don't wanna dwell on this topic no more...
BUT TODAY IN SCHOOL...one hell of a rollercoaster... I sometimes remind myself that I should be having fun..and that's what I'm doing I guess?
Just 2 years..hmm....
and I emo-ed on the class blog cos I dint wanna emo on this blog..but if you still wanna see my freaking emo post...HERE
and today is Jannah's (MJ) birthday so...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JANNAH!
must give me all the pics we took okay!
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9:44 pm
Tuesday, April 08, 2008/
chocolate and fluctuations @ 9:13 pm
HEY HO. today started of really bad. i think my nerves got really frazzled. i think the colour of my aura normally is...purple, green, lavender. But after this, I think there were like electric bolts of yellow all over and the after effects lasted till today.
Thanks Siti for the hug and being so understanding and caring. Appreciate it! Thanks canteen for selling that cheap but DELICIOUSLY choclatey swiss roll. Chocolate will make anything go away. I bet many people will agree.
So far I'm on top of everything and loving everything.
Especially maths and geog and lit! WOOTS. Just do not like Econs. I think, now I realise what Daryl and Sean mean. I'm just waiting for the time where I can be like Jasmine and LIKE econs. I like it but I don't GET IT. I hate the method of teaching. Haiz....
can u believe i CHEER for maths everytime lessons start. Me and Nadirah will go oh so crazy and noisy.
And spotting for Nadirah's Unta in this dessert is so easy. HHAHA...
Had a long day. Lit and Econs Cambridge Summer School interview. I think I really flunked the Econs one. I really x 10^10 hope that I get the Lit one. PLS PLS PLS...
Emotionally, I think I've adjusted. But I still miss the friendly faces of random people like Trudy and Marie for example. And Yong Liang. haha...random people from my OG.
I went back to TPJ on Fri in my MJ uniform. HAhha....Hmm. yes no comments. But I felt at peace. REally. Mwaahah.
And I'm really glad that everything's ok now. That what was so mixed up and crazy before has fallen into place and I am less worried and confused. Everything happens for a reason, this is something I so strongly hold on to.
I'll give my 100% shot for everyone I love including myself, in this 2 short years. Yes even for Econs.
Still, sometimes it's just not enough and I keep wanting more out of something I know is not capable of giving me enough. Sometimes I just want something that is very familiar to me. The school is still an unfamiliar place to me. I don't know if it's the fact that it's too big or too small. Maybe both maybe neither. I just know what I want but I don't know how to get it sometimes. Sometimes I just want to take things apart and make it into my perfect little world. Yeah but it's all just mirrors around me. Reflecting what I give to the world. Sometimes, it's not even mirrors. What I give is not even what I get. Sometimes I think why do I care so much, when it's all not worth it in the end. And then when I think about it again, I always do what makes me happy. But it was only momentarily. In the long term, I keep feeling down again and feel like a POS and asking me why in the world am I doing this when it's going nowhere and I'm going round and round in circles.
I'm glad I make people feel better. It makes me smile too that I make them feel better. Heh..but sometimes, people just do not know how to make ME feel better. Maybe they just don't know how to. Maybe I don't know enough people who makes me feel better. Maybe I do know but I never see them when I need them, cos JC is a freaking big place where handphones are a necessity and bills go up cos of this. So for those who have made me feel better at one point of time or another, a BIG thank you...You people ROCK. Would you know who you are? :) Please....
OOH Daryl got in SONGFEST 08 at TPJC! YAY! And Tara and Visa too! Wonder if Syazwan got in....
Anyhoos Sean's buying me tickets..YAY!!
PUBLICITY: SONGFEST 08 @ TPJC. 7pm. Tickets: $5.
OOH K PICTURES! haha...
SHILA and ME.
Mouse and RAT! Vote for #26! ATIQAH!!
Atiqah's fanclub! see the badges?? NICE RIGHT...woots! Hoon and Me!
MOUSE!
YJ SO CUTE!
Met Erma so she can give me her suepr dee duper late Vday present cum Bday present. She showed me her AMAZING new newsletter which we all helped with along the way. SO PROUD OF YOU ERMS! At Starbucks CP. Bryan and Pam came too. AND PAM FORGOT TO BRING MY MARKERS! So must meet her at TPJ one day to get it. Which is not so inconvenient for me...
Bryan se-leng moment.
Have you seen the latest way of taking photos? mwhahhags.
AND AGAIN!
PAMELA Bryan TRYING to copy Pamela. HAHA....HIM-BO! Actually he was listening to a gross story by Erma. ok..EEWWW..
We saw Shahrena that day. It seems most of the times I'm out, I'll see Shahrena. HAha so funny...I LOVE Straits Times when it's not about work!
ok u can't see it. But that's supposed to be a yellow bird. Which I do not know the name of. Yeah. On the way somewhere and this was in the park in front of my home.
I am turning to be a real nature-loving sharp-eyed person. WOO HOO. can u see the butterfly? So prettaye...THIS IS WHY I LOVE WALKING HOME FROM TPJ! I can choose to stop one stop further so that it is a shorter walk but I like walking home from the TPJ stop so I can see all this nature stuff. HAiz...and the long walk with the trees just make me calm and makes me reflect on my day.
XIN YI SHOOTS
ANOOJA DEFENDS!
PARVEEN INTERCEPTS!
CHERIE JUMPS!
SHAKILA CATCHES!
top row; from left: jocelyn, wan ting, me, daryl, ding jie
THE MUMSIES: elsie chng and shahrena. Elsie has left SPH!!!! :( owwwhh....owhh...heart pain heart pain!!! sobs sobs
and because IN CROWD 07-08 has it's own theme song made especially for us....
lent my tie to mr Sum...can you see?
JANNAH SEXY SEVENTEEN!
1. Shafienas bought Jannah a cream roll from the Recharge stall From left; Fazari, Siti, Me and Shafienas. We all stare at Jannah eating the cake longingly...except Shafienas...since she is so happy that she bought Jannah a present..
2. We all TRY to get a bite. Fazari wants to snatch. Jannah says "OI!" Siti wants to hit Jannah with a ....shoebag?! Shafienas says....let's drink this drink instead!
3. At the end of the day, the nice one gets a feeding from the birthday girl while the naughty Fazari sulks at one corner...
Family photo! Missing in picture: Shafiq and Nadirah(photographer).
Fairies in the air...
Safiah: FACE OFF AH...
BOO!
council nominees; all the best to all deserving nominees
Voting through SMS. Extra lah Musfirah and Wirda! teehee...
But we got bored and our legs and backs so cramped from sitting on the floor...
Got ready with Christina. We were so pissed at the fact that we were treated like prisoners. ARGGS. So she asked her dad to send her her stuff. So pissing offing. Haiz..Phobos plus Callisto!
I dinnoe my hair grew THIS long...
YAY! Found a french-braider in school! THANKS RIKA!!! Muackz! Btw...i LOVE th triton cheerleadingdisplay..ROKCS..no wonder they won...and i love your shirts lahh...NICE okay.
Time to try french braiding Christina's hair. CHOPPED: Failure....
Shila is ATLAS' Cheerleader! SO CUTE!
08A301! Plus Musfirah sesat...Phobos and Atlas had to seat at the tentage...haiz.
Daryl got First Runner UP!!!! And a lot of vouchers! Shopping mall vouchers and HMV vouchers...HRMPH...
Me; Christina; Pei Rong!
Me; Christina; Jasmine!
Jonathan and me! HAHAH Jonathan Bao Bao! Our guitar Shifu.
Syahidah; Jackson; Boo; ME!; Christina.
Daryl; Pei Rong ( am i allowed to upload this photo? hee...)
SHILA and ME.
Mouse and RAT! Vote for #26! ATIQAH!!
Atiqah's fanclub! see the badges?? NICE RIGHT...woots! Hoon and Me!
MOUSE!
YJ SO CUTE!
Met Erma so she can give me her suepr dee duper late Vday present cum Bday present. She showed me her AMAZING new newsletter which we all helped with along the way. SO PROUD OF YOU ERMS! At Starbucks CP. Bryan and Pam came too. AND PAM FORGOT TO BRING MY MARKERS! So must meet her at TPJ one day to get it. Which is not so inconvenient for me...
Bryan se-leng moment.
Have you seen the latest way of taking photos? mwhahhags.
AND AGAIN!
PAMELA
Bryan TRYING to copy Pamela. HAHA....HIM-BO! Actually he was listening to a gross story by Erma. ok..EEWWW..
ok u can't see it. But that's supposed to be a yellow bird. Which I do not know the name of. Yeah.
I am turning to be a real nature-loving sharp-eyed person. WOO HOO. can u see the butterfly? So prettaye...THIS IS WHY I LOVE WALKING HOME FROM TPJ! I can choose to stop one stop further so that it is a shorter walk but I like walking home from the TPJ stop so I can see all this nature stuff. HAiz...and the long walk with the trees just make me calm and makes me reflect on my day.